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施比受更为有福

2012-02-08T12:09:00.001+08:00

施 - 有好几个意思, 其中2个比较贴切
1. 给予: 不是把不要的给出去, 而是把贴身的, 所爱的舍去。

这是一个重要的环节..
很多时候我们给不要的, 多余的..
但当我们割爱时, 才是真正的施..

当我们不坚持己见, 放下权力..
当按奈不住, 忍无可忍时..
选择等待, 愿意聆听..
这岂不是一种 '施'?

2. 实行: 真正的做, 不只是说而已
找到这个意思忽然间发现..
另一种的领悟..
约翰1书提醒我们爱不能只在言语中..
总要以行动来达成..

当然第2个意思不能配合整体,
但也让我记得, 声教不如身教。

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New year...

2012-02-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Tues FT meeting, Uncle Ivan said...
"we should greet each other - Happy New You, not just New Year..."
that caused me to think.. when did this New Me started?

It goes all the way back to 1991...
it wasn't beginning of the year, in fact it was end of the year...
I went to a last gospel camp of FGC...
invited by my good friend - CC...

for the benefit of those who dunno me...
I disliked Christians a lot...
(ha, if FB was invented by then, i'd have 'dislike' all the christian side...)
so why i went to a church camp?
coz that year i failed to get my long-haul-liked-girl to be my gf...
(very long story, i'll spare u...)
anyway, so because of all the disappointment and loneliness...
i went...
also because i din know it was a church camp...

to cut the whole story even shorter...
after all the games and makan, we were asked to sit in a hall...
that hall really looked like a typical church in the movie...
they acted the prodigal son story...
and there and then i felt all the 'dislikes' left...
i only had a voice in me 'this is what i need...'
love - no string attached, totally for me, accept me...
i accepted Jesus on that faithful night...

that was really a New Year coz i had a New Me...
i have been touched, changed and transformed since then...

Ha, i am really an old man - keep telling story of the past... ha...
But it was really a good story, powerful story...
without it, i dun think i can ever enjoy life...
with it, i can really have Happy New Year, each year...
Thank You Jesus...

Wish you a Happy New Year, everyone...

2 goals at one go...

2012-01-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

woke up around 5.30am.. after sending Angela off...
i decided to pray for a while...
then around 6.40am, i changed into jogging gear...
then i went to church - my 'favorite-jogging-field-for-now'
ha...
anyway.. i started running...
i didn't think much..
i just knew i wanna make it for May's 10km marathon...
then when i hit 30mins.. i felt something different..
so i kept running...
then i hit 45mins.. i kept running...
then i reach 55mins.. alright, i just gonna keep running!
then by 1 hour 1 min 30 seconds....
i reached 10km!!!
WOW! i couldn't believe it..
i mean, i felt i could do more...
but i better stop and don't overdo it...
one of my goal this year - reach 10km
another goal - run a full 1 hour...
Thank God, past 2 days were really good...
Thank God today i reach my goals for the year!!!
WA HA!!! praise God..
i just wanna keep running

13 March 2009 - that's when i started...
i ran 1.25km... took me almost 15mins (i think i did 13...)
hmm, i have come so far...
thank God for helping me to persevere...!

keep running

testing my new app

2011-12-29T00:46:00.001+08:00

Well, juz downloaded an new app to write blog, let me try if it works..

Seems working.

Happy only B-)

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I'm the boy.. saved by that boy...

2011-12-27T00:23:00.001+08:00

Last Sat was a real test of my self...
will I look to God? or my own capabilities?
will I give God the glory when it's good?
will I give thanks to God when it's not good?
will I be proud when many respond to the call?

2000+ years ago, i think that little boy came without all these thinking..
He only had one thing in mind.. to save those who are lost...
to show the love of God and to sacrifice Himself...
When He said He's the way, the truth and the life...
He didn't say it, He show it...
He gave up His life for it..
So that those who are lost - can find the way...
those who has been deceived can learn the truth...
those who desire to live a real life.. can finally live...
He came and gave...

Thank God, many responded...
When I think it over...
nothing of my sharing has much impact...
it's His work, His grace, His power, His love...
I was just there to simply... witness all...
Thank God...
Thank You Jesus...
Thanks for Christmas...
Thank You...

less I forget

2011-12-23T01:27:00.003+08:00

It's part of the lyrics of an old hymn - lead me to calvary...
that's right, we should never forget..
all the good things that God has done...
in our lives and through our lives...

i think it's about 2 weeks ago...
angela hurt her foot and that night she asked me to pray...
well, i prayed
frankly...i was just trying to concentrate on God - He's the healer
but also a bit gan jiong...
and praise God, after 2 times of praying...
she felt so much better...
one day later when i ask her...
she said 'totally well already!'

then last Fri went to Kota Masai to preach...
sermon was ok.. but it's the 'aftermath'
an old auntie came and asked me to pray...
the most 啼笑皆非 is what she said...
"pastor, you preach with so much joke, so humorous...
sure got the Holy Spirit, so can you pray for me?"
??? ok, i prayed nonetheless...
and .... she was healed instantly from her pain (due to rheumatism)
God is so amazing...

weeks ago during staff meeting,
someone said "hey, you are the 'orthopedics'...
all the leg problems all seems to get healed after you pray...
LOL... God is humorous...
and God is...
so amazing

God is in the house...

2011-11-19T00:26:00.001+08:00

Tonight's cell is wonderful... Because God is in thehouse!!!
Supposed to meet @ Tim & Yean's house but last min they can't make it...
then wanted to go Jeff's house.. he also can't make it...
so I decided to meet in church instead...

when i reach church ard 8.55pm...

saw a man with 2 ladies and a kid looking intochurch office...
after asking, found out that they wanted to go for PHD (Prayer, Healing,Deliverance)
coz the wife (one of the ladies... the other lady is her younger sister) hurther back...
she has seen doctor and even pain killer won't help...
i went ard to find out and realized they cancelled tonight's PHD due to BaptismER...
then i said 'since you are here, can i pray for you.. if you dun mind?'
the husband was quite happy to hear that (when i first saw him, he lookeddistress)
so i got everyone involve (husband lay hand, the rest pray together)
(including Jin Liang and Michelle)...
after prayer, she said she felt a bit better...
so prayed again... then i asked how is she...
she said '1st time about 40% healed, 2nd time about 70% healed...'
so i said 'let's believe a 100% healing' so we prayed...
after prayer she straight away stood up from the chair...
with a smiley face and she said, 'i think i'm totally well!'
even the husband and sister exclaimed 'look, she could stand up so fast'
we didn't stop there.. we prayed for her leg because i guess she has long shortleg
then while praying, i could feel her left leg grew..
so i asked, 'did you feel something?' 'i felt my left leg grew' she said...
they were so happy...
they came in distress, they left with total joyful face...
then we continue to have cell group, wonderful worship, word and works...
God, Thank You! You are so amazing!

Thank You for arranging all these...

Even though cell had only 3 persons...

But it was really a wonderful experience...

God really really really so interested in meeting needs...

are we?

Meetings....

2011-11-18T01:09:00.001+08:00

Life is about meetings...
seriously...
meeting up with friends, family, colleagues, boss, strangers...
formal, informal...
serious, relax, business, casual...

every meeting is an opportunity...
opportunity to know others and ourselves...
how others think, how others response to how we think...
how we response to how others thinks, others responses...
it's always learning curve..
knowing how far, how mature we have become...

was having a rather serious meeting the other day...
then i almost lost it...
but praise God i decided to stay calm, keep my cool...
though i felt terrible after the meeting..
but Angela told me (after everything ended)
"You did well, i really think you handled the meeting well"
really? i couldn't believe... i guess... i have grown up...

i think when i was young (still young) my skill in handling meetings...
were really bad...
not that i have become so good at it...
but i really thank God for helping me...
i have changed.. i have grown up..
i have learned to hold a meeting...
hopefully it was an enjoyable one...

trying

2011-11-04T18:23:00.000+08:00

recently has been trying...

trying to be keep up...

keep fit, stay vigilant, be on guard...

tried to be hard working..

tried to be friendly...

tried to do a lot more...

it's like, if there's only 1 little of oil...

i am letting it burn more, burn harder...

is it in a way shortening my life?

dunno, juz trying.. trying to do more...

so that i won't regret because i wasted opportunities...

watched the show 'In Time'...

then realized, ya.. we cannot waste time...

people in the show know how much time they left..

sometimes, i really hope to know how much more time for me...

so that i won't waste time..

i won't waste time on unimportant thing...

i won't waste time to do things that is wasteful...

but i guess it's blessing not to know when our time is up...

we just live day by day...by His grace..

with our best, to glorify His name...

so... i think, better log off now..

:) do some meaningful thing...

Nice song...

2011-10-23T07:39:00.001+08:00

really salute this guy - Steven Curtis Chapman...
wonderful life, good testimony, fantastic voice, powerful songs...
Thank God for him..
here's his latest song - Do everything

the inspiration behind...

变通

2011-10-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

tried google translation - the meaning is alternative...
somehow it didn't give the correct meaning...
i think it's more like adapt to the situation by changing styles and patterns...
ha, can it be simpler?

anyway.. why this 'word'? bcoz this is what i did to cell today...
seriously, i don't have magic tools to make cell better...
actually i don't think i have full understanding for cell..
nor do i have any capabilities to make one cell successful...
i know top 2 qualities of a growing and successful cell leader, i.e. close relationship with God..
and pray for cell member frequently...
i guess when one is close to God and keep praying for members...
he/she will know exactly what to do, how to care, right time, right way...
so instead of focusing on how do i change cell styles to make it appealing for members...
which i think it's a wrong footing to start with...
one should think how to 'feed' the lamb, what are their needs...
then the cell will be appealing to people..

not saying i have all the answer but i tried today....
i felt that cell members needed visitation, just care for them...
don't talk too much of teaching and correction..
care should come first...
so i arranged everyone to visit Marcus and Faye...
well, it went pretty well, good time of P&W...
then updates from everyone..
then end with prayer for one another...
for the first time, cell took less than 90mins...
we left the house before 10.15pm...
from there 3 of us (Chong, Patrick - new friend and myself)
went for supper and we chit chat further...
was it good? i can't say for sure but i hope it brings some fresh breeze to cell..
i am not worried if cell needs to close down (for whatever reason)...
i only desire to make sure that everyone is cared for...
so i guess, 变通 is a good way..
hopefully we 变 and more areas will be 通...

One leg...

2011-10-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

it happened some time ago...
can't remember how long ago..
but i remembered that day i was juz outside The Store...
waiting for someone (i think it was angela)..
then i saw an indian man walked out from The Store...
he's not an ordinary person..
he had only one leg...
every now and then those who eat @ JJ would see him..
with only one leg and a crutches...
he goes around selling packs of tissue paper...
he never asks anything for free...
he offers the tissue packs, and if you reject...
he will just move to another table...

ok, back to my story...
when i saw him walking out from The Store..
in his hand was big bags of tissue paper...
he actually buys them from The Store and sells them..
i mean, i never once thought about where they (those who go around and sell)...
got their tissue paper (dumb right, sure have to buy to sell la)
but when i saw him walk out with those tissue...
my respect towards him suddenly just filled up my heart...
then what happened next really made me speechless...
he approached a fruit stall and ask the lady..
and bcoz of my respect towards him...
i was so ready to pay for him
but then he asked... "ini berapa?"
WOW! He actually wanted to buy the fruits...
he didn't expect the lady to give for free, he wanted to buy them!
the lady didn't take his money, she offered him 2 pieces of fruits (can't remember what fruit)
and before he went off, he said "thank you" to the lady...

this incident really made me felt so shameful yet brought me courage...
he could have complain, feel sad, self pity, waste his life...
but he didn't.. he just embrace life with courage...
he didn't expect anyone to treat him in special way...
he live his life as other usual human - work, and pay for ur expenses...
what a courageous man...
while watching him walking away, i prayed for him...
Lord, bless him... Thank you for such wonderful life..

Lord help me...
so that i would appreciate every day...
because it is You who give me as a gift, as present...
thank You Lord...

I just realized...

2011-09-25T00:35:00.000+08:00

For many years (don't know when it started)...
whenever I had stressful life I'll get rashes...
those rashes were very itchy and often times I'll scratch...
sometimes i'll use hot water, sometimes use ice...
just to release the feeling of itchiness...
and whenever i scratch, those areas will be blue black...
coz i scratched so hard...

but while I was preaching today...
i realized...
this few weeks, though it was so challenging...
really had very tight schedule...
yet, i had no rashes...
is it because of supernatural healing?
or i have learned not to feel stressed up?
or both?
or.. God has healed me from being easily stress up?
But i am so thankful...
coz feeling itchy all the time is really torturing...
Thank You Lord.. You've been so so good to me...

Thank You Jesus...

New mercies

2011-09-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

There are new every morning...
New every morning...
Great is Thy faithfulness O Lord...
Great is Thy faithfulness...

Didn't really remember where it came from...
well, it's from a song for sure but which passage is it from?
Guess?
Lamentation chapter 3...

Was talking to the worship team in the morning...
"God has new mercies await us every morning...
so let's forget what's in the past..
your success, your failure, your happy moment, and sadness..
God can do a brand new thing today in your life..."

then during preservice prayer...
Christine went up and quoted the same verse...
God's mercies are new every morning...
Wow! I knew that it's from God...
she wasn't there when i told the worship team..
I believe God wants us to know it for sure...
NEW = fresh, nor before seen or known
yup... God can do wonderful & brand new thing in our life!!!
Don't linger in the past.. success, failure... no no...
Move on, keep moving...
God has so much more to show...

熟思

2011-09-17T11:35:00.001+08:00

熟思（shú sī）的汉语词典解释：反覆、深入地考虑

但我要说的是成熟的思想。

刚刚读了Daniel的post:

是他记载关于他儿子的事迹...

但我读了之后，真叫我自叹不如，真是"熟思"啊...

的确，如果我们因为被人生或事物"欺负"，

我们不该掉头就走，不该卑躬屈膝，不该怨天尤人...

Daniel说要把"那人"变成朋友...

说得正是，因为朋友是支持，帮助我们的...

换句话，如果我们把一切"欺负"我们的变成朋友...

那我们就能从中学习，那我们便能乘风破浪，披荆斩棘...
让我们一起学习化敌为友...

其实事情往往是两面的，

从这面来看是敌对的，消极的，

但换另一面便能看见晴天...

"如果打不人家就不去游乐场，不是很羞耻吗？不是越来越少可以去的地方吗？"

如果遇到挫折就不再尝试，遇到困难就大退堂鼓，遇到波浪就灰心...

那... 不是越来越少可以做的是吗？不是越来越瞧不起自己吗？

谢谢Daniel给我上了宝贵的一课，你还是我的老师！:-)

Another Matt Redman's song

2011-09-14T14:32:00.001+08:00

i really like this song a lot!
especially the starting part, with just very minimal music and vocal..
phuah.. nice one...

before I forget...

2011-09-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

ya, better write it down so that i won't regret for forgetting...
it was during the fasting month...
can't remember when but i think was just half way through...
for a long long time, i remembered that during fasting month...
non-muslim should not eat in front of the muslim during day time...
it's kinda disrespect coz they are fasting...

the other day my wife and i were at Jusco...
it was about 6+ and we decided to eat simple dinner...
at Jusco food court and then go for movie...
so we bought some food and drinks...
then when i looked around i saw many Malays were there too..
they bought their food but all not eating..
then it dawn on me that it was their fasting month!
we tried to eat discreetly but they were quite close...
so... i mean, they could see us eating...
i was kinda embarrassed but had to eat or else we miss our movie...

finally we finished our dinner and it was about 7.10pm...
but those Malays around us still not eating...
then we were wondering, will they announce 'buka puasa'?
as we were wondering then over PA someone begin to pray..
then we walked passed different tables and we saw the Malays praying...
Suddenly i felt so touch - they were so serious about it...
they were so committed...
i didn't think of those who actually 'break the law'...
but what i saw was enough - i was touched...
i salute their commitment and devotion...
"what about me?" i began to ask myself....

Lord, help me to be serious with You...
Help me to be committed in Your kingdom...

new blog?

2011-08-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

after blogged about Daniel...
i was just thinking..
should i start a new blog to just write about people?
those people that i treasure...
those who impacted my life..
but then... who shd be at the top list?
i mean, those at the top will end up at the bottom coz it's arranged by date...

but then Daniel already 'sat' at the top seat..
who shd be the next?
actually the problem is not 'who's next'..
but who did i miss out after 10.. 50... 100...?
ah, i know, every entry will be by name lor...
hmm, good, i think it's a good project..
at least i say what i wanna say...
hopefully to all those whom i treasure before i die..
then at least when i die, i won't regret for not doing something for them...
i think i'll start...
about 10 Sep... too busy from now till then...
hopefully i don't die so soon... LOL...

God help me...

Old friend...

2011-08-26T18:06:00.000+08:00

He's not that old but we knew each other for a long time...
Daniel... a guy whom i knew since Peralihan @ SDJ...
岁月+新加坡的"摧残" (LOL) yet he's still the same Daniel..
Soft spoken yet firm in decision, friendly, smiley face (most of the time)...
a guy with lots of talent, especially in writing and drawing...
quite 重感情 but not so emotional (not too sure la)...

Why i talked about him? coz last night we had a great time of fellowship...
He's now in SG, married with 2 kids, kinda happy in his job...
I'm happy for him...

Last nite dinner then he mentioned about how we met...
it was quite funny (yet torturing also) for his part..
when he entered SDJ, he was assigned to 'Putih' (white) class...
he said this "though is 'PUTIH' but the class is either brown, black, with a bit of yellow, no putih at all... |||" LOL, LOVL.. he's just so funny...
then change to Kuning (yellow) and finally Biru (blue) which was the class we met...
I think I was in Merah (red) at first then Biru - suppose to be the elite class...
dunno how managed to get in.. LOL

Another thing - he's got superb memory..
he was asking me about some names which i can't recall until he mentioned...
man, he was there only for 1 1/2 years but he remembered...
we (one more guy - his name is Wei Hui, we call him Professor) became good friend then...
all because the 3 of us love to write - story, article...
so when he decided to move to SG (family decision), Prof and I became regular customer of SG...
and very often we were late...
Thanks to the immigration, which after so many years still so jam...
so poor Daniel always gotta wait..
i remember once we set to meet at 9am but when we reach JB custom...
Prof suddenly realized his passport expired...
those days no mobile phone and by then Daniel has left his house...
so according to Daniel, he waited for an hour plus before he decided to go home...
but the 2 of us still made our way to his house and 'surprised' him... LOL

our usual place was 'cyber cafe' (just a shop that sells PC games and renting some PC for 'kids' to play without internet access) - we played PC game..
most of the time we eat, talk, share ideas and played PC games...

WOW, i could go on, just so much of good memory with my good old friend...
now back to the dinner last night...
so Daniel asked the wife to help take a photo...
she kept asking both of us to come closer..
so tried... but after she took the photo she said...
"aiyo, why there's a gap?"
and Daniel replied "we can't possibly stick our face together, right?"
i just kept laughing...

Thank u Daniel for being a faithful friend...
God bless your birthday...
ya, i went to meet him for his birthday...
which we used to do...
just that this round without prof...
and without birthday gift..
oh.. this is the photo the wife took... :)

man, my face is so big... LOL
good to know you Daniel...

Here for You

2011-08-25T09:58:00.007+08:00

Matt Redman latest album..
really like this song...

"Here For You"
Verse 1:
Let our praise be Your welcome
Let our songs be a sign
We are here for You, we are here for You
Let Your breath come from heaven
Fill our hearts with Your life
We are here for You, we are here for You
Chorus:
To You our hearts are open
Nothing here is hidden
You are our one desire
You alone are holy
Only You are worthy
God, let Your fire fall down
Verse 2:
Let our shout be Your anthem
Your renown fill the skies
We are here for You, we are here for You
Let Your Word move in power
Let what's dead come to life
We are here for You, we are here for You
Bridge:
We welcome You with praise
We welcome You with praise
Almighty God of love
Be welcomed in this place
[x2]
Let every heart adore
Let every soul awake
Almighty God of love
Be welcomed in this place

10 Ways to Tell You're Slipping

2011-08-19T08:49:00.000+08:00

Joe McKeever

It's surprising how God's people awaken one day and suddenly realize they have fallen away from the closeness they used to enjoy with the Lord. The signs have been there all along, but they were not paying attention.

Here are some tests I have discovered for spotting signs of slippage in my own walk with the Lord, evidence that I'm losing the intimacy with Him that always meant so much in my personal life.

10. You know you're slipping when the big thing you look forward to on a Sunday is a football game.

9. You know you're slipping when reading the Bible no longer excites you, angers you, or challenges you.

8. You know you're slipping when you finally get up off the couch and get involved in some ministry the Lord has been laying on your heart and the first thing you do is start criticizing all the other couch potatoes who are only doing the same thing you have been doing all this time.

7. You know you're slipping when, after slacking off in your tithing over the past year, instead of feeling guilty, you find yourself criticizing the regular tithers for their self-righteous and legalistic attitudes.

6. You know you're slipping when you can read the Ten Commandments and give yourself a passing grade on all of them.

5. You know you're slipping when you can go a whole day without praying and it not bother you one bit.

4. You know you're slipping when you can have a dirty thought and justify it as "what normal humans do."

3. You know you're slipping when you feel a nudging from the Holy Spirit to speak to that person or give to this one or make a phone call to another and you squelch it.

2. You know you're slipping when you decide to reward yourself for doing well by skipping your Bible reading and prayer for that day.

1. You know you're really, really slipping when the problem of slipping doesn't cause you great concern.

Dr. Joe McKeever is a Preacher, Cartoonist, and the Director of Missions for the Baptist Association of Greater New Orleans.

扑火

2011-08-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

飞蛾扑火，自取灭亡

最近一直忙着救火...
总以为自己在帮忙，那知是越帮越忙...
但也因此发现，很多人很像飞蛾...
而所谓的火，就如同人不好的话语...
贬义的话，消极的话，甚至有时别人无心的一言...
往往都成了星星之火 - 确实燎原...
烧尽了一切的自信心，一切的关系，一切的感情...

当然，如果能及时让活水的泉源浇灌...
又岂能燎原呢?
可惜又可叹的是，多数人就如飞蛾...
多半选择扑火，后果是灭亡...

咳，累啊！累啊！
自己不免也成了池鱼之殃...
但总不能隔岸观火...
哈(苦笑)，我也是飞蛾.....

Why didn't you come earlier?

2011-07-26T15:08:00.000+08:00

Read the news on Norway's recent massacre, the title was the above...
it was the cry of the survivor... the police came an hour later..
and about 68 people died..

I think everyone probably has said this phrase once in life...
especially when we needed help urgently, we say it...
we'll feel the frustration, the helplessness.. even the anger...

Then, i think probably we are the 'target' of the complaint...
I remember I heard it more than once...
some situations were non urgent or life threatening...
more like 'aiya, you missed it...'
sometimes we say it to ourselves "why didn't i come/appear earlier?"

Mary and Martha said this to Jesus... when the brother died...
They really blamed Jesus for being late, if he had appeared earlier....
But Jesus was not sorry about it... He purposely delayed his arrival...
why? for God's glory, so that He can show to the people, that God is in control...

this is not an excuse for all of us to be late or delay...
perhaps it's the only reason why we can be late - God wanted us to be late...
other than that we really have no excuse..

not only to an appointment we have to go to...
but for something that we are suppose to do, don't delay...
I felt that my preparation for the recent Kampar trip..
if I 'appeared' earlier - prepare earlier, then i will be more familiar with my points...
then i would probably preached clearer and more effective..

Why didn't you come earlier...

Chinese has an idiom... when we keep delaying...
then everything else will be affected badly...

Don't be late...

choose not to be offended

2011-07-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

went for pastor's retreat from Mon - Wed...
it's a kind of retreat where there's little agenda...
mostly eat and have fun...
we met 2 mornings for a short sermon time...
1st day was by Pastor Tay, 2nd day was Pastor George...

Ps Tay shared something which i have heard before...
but it's refreshing because it's not from someone of our church...
he shared about how we can choose not to be offended...
similar to sin, offenses comes in 2 ways - omission and commission...
omission - we expect people to treat us in certain way but they fail to do
commission - we din expect them to do it (bad sense) but they did

When we hope that we receive encouragement, a pat on the back, appreciation, etc...
but we receive none..
it seemed that what we had done were all wasted...
it appeared that we are just a fool...
then it translated as a message that we are useless, good for nothing, we can't do it...
of course if we take all that in, then we are offended...
we are then hurt.. deep inside...

worse than this is - when we receive criticism, unkind words..
we felt that we became a laughing stock, we are idiots...
the list can go on...
and if we continue to dwell in all these, then we will go depress...

so he shared with us an important lesson - choice...
immediately i link it to a program i watched the night before...
how a soldier is trained to perform in all circumstances...
they will response correctly and swiftly when they have to...
they choose... more than just physical battle...
a mental battle.. they can choose to response...
and it all boils down to, daily training...
it was all the training that helped them to
"mind over matter"

so, how not to be offended?
choose what to think...
and the good source of thought comes from God's word...
Thank God, He kept me on track..
i'm still on my way to finish my bible within this year...

God is helping me.. :)
choose...

undercover boss...

2011-07-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

watched the show 'Undercover Boss'..
so inspired how they are went around and found out how their employees worked...
not first time watching this program..
but tonite's show somehow inspired me...
i'm inspired to praise those people who are the 'unsung hero'

every week,
a group of cleaner who cleaned the whole church compound: esther, ah-bi, anggo...
philip and bro hee just go around to make sure all the 'technical stuff' work well...
they also make sure all the rooms are opened in time for all events...
many drivers go around to fetch children, youth, elderly..
practically those who had no transport to attend church, cell, fellowship, etc..
many hands and legs helped out in Elim...
and many who sacrificed their lunch to helped to count weekly offering...
cell leaders who do the work of a pastor - taking care of God's people...
those who faithfully prayed - at home, 247, different kind of prayer meetings...
many aunties and uncles who helped to fold bulletin...
Ushers who arrived @ church early to welcome others...
worship team who arrived so early to practice and get ready for service...
sound team who always be the first to arrive @ hall and last to leave...

i dun think i have completed the list...
but i know God knows...
Thank you heroes! thank you for hearing God and responded to Him...

i always remember the final interview with Richard Winters (Band of brothers)...
a great guy who led his men through the D-day and World War II...
then his grandson asked him, "Grandpa, were you a hero in war?"
he answered, "No... but I served in a company of heroes"

i dun think i'll ever think i am a hero and...
i certainly proud to serve with a huge company of heroes...
thank you FGC-ian...

art of communication

2011-07-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

this few days has been learning this - how to communicate...
not a proper class... coz my Teacher never need a proper class...
it was through situations, all kinds of them...
it was on the street..
at home, mamak, church office, etc...
my Teacher seems to love to have impromptu kind of teaching method...
some i learned quite slow...
some had better response..
all in all, it's a lesson that i need a whole life to learn...
so that those who suppose to hear it will really hear it..
so that those who accidentally hear it will also hear correctly...
communication... the longest yet most beneficial lesson in my life...

Thank you Teacher...

有没有...

2011-07-16T13:25:00.000+08:00

listened to this song the other day..
then realized it kinda speaks of how i felt within...
i always wonder would anything that would anyone to thought of me?
man, why so attention seeking?
but no.. i only think about, would i leave any good memories in my friends' mind?
is there any song, any gesture, any words spoken or anything...
would actually 'cause' my friend to think of me?

but then the challenge is - did i leave any good thing for them to remember?
i know life is unpredictable, i might go at anytime...
so let me be a candle, light up the lives of others...
yet, goes unnoticed, quietly brings out the best in others...
it's His name be lifted up, higher...
not me.. not about me..
:)

my most talkative moments

2011-07-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

started from Jan this year...
had Alpha training few times...
Spoke in English service twice...
Taught in a Bible study group...
then Kulai Youth camp...
Mission training...
Mission trip...

Coming up will be
AIMS - just next week...
EPCC (Kampar)...
TEENz service...
Eng service...
Kota Masai church...
Kulai church...

this is not all...
wow, i spoke in so many official function...
i never expect this to happen...
but the thing is, i'm not good in expressing myself...
i guess God giving me many chances to be trained up...
ha, used to be called 爱讲话 (love to talk)...
actually, nope.. if can, i'd choose to shut my mouth...
God is changing me... :)
thank God...

no secured place...

2011-07-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

early in the morning received one shocking news (through sms)...
church office has been burglar-ed!!!
My heart sank coz i knew lots of valuable things in the office..

i rushed my way to the church (literally sped)..
then when i saw the condition i was really sad and angry...
of coz not all cupboards and drawers were forced open..
but seeing the crime scene it's shocking me...
a few drawers were really 'turn-upside-down'...
chong hiang's room was not spared either...

then a thought came to me..
"there's no place on earth is secured"
ya.. church can be broken into...
bank can be rob, safe can be cracked...
where do i place my trust?
what gives me faith?

Let me have my total faith in Jesus...
Let me live daily for Jesus...
Le me be Jesus freak...

ARK - one Act of Random Kindness

2011-07-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

was on my way to TCA college yesterday...
took a bus to 170 bus depot..
then walked over to another bus stop which is about 1km away...
waited for a long time, no sign of bus no. 80..
then came a bus (can't remember wat no.)...
quite a lot people waiting to get onto the bus...
as the Q getting shorter, there was an elderly man was rushing towards the bus..

i can't take my sight off him, watching him running (to us it's more like brisk walking)
by the time he reach the back of the bus (engine area)..
the door was closed and ready to go on...
though that man hit the glass of the bus but obviously the driver didn't notice...
so there and then i ran towards the bus...
hit as hard as i can on the glass, hope to catch the driver's attention...
and yes, he noticed someone 'hit' the bus...
so the bus stop and door was opened again..
that old man stop and look at me with surprise written all over his face...
i showed him a gesture of "please, board the bus..."
he smiled and walk onto the bus...

when i return to the bus stop..
a few adults (near primary school so got lots of kids there too) look with disbelief..
i didn't mind, didn't think of myself much...
i was just thinking...
Singapore tried so hard to help the people to be more civic minded...
tried so hard to help Singaporeans to love Singapore..
but it took a Malaysian to help a Singaporean on the soil of Singapore...
it's not program, not education..
only Jesus can change a person to have love that flows from their heart..

I am the salt and light of this world..
how about you?

again & again...

2011-06-29T11:34:00.000+08:00

chinese has an idiom "一而再再而三"...
it means, same thing happen over and over again...

i'm not having the liberty to reveal now,
but knowing that someone close to me leaving it's just so sad...
though not far but the reality of not being able to co-work again...
sadden me...

is it because of no coworker or not much of chance to interact?
dunno...
bcoz in actual, when they are here, we seldom spent time...
now knowing that they are leaving, i felt i have failed again..
of coz i dun think they leave due to my lack..
but i felt that i failed bcoz if i consider them as close friend...
why didn't i spent more time?
why didn't i pay more attention to their struggle?
why didn't i?

while writing this, i'm listening to this song...

really feel like crying...
though it's not exactly about this situation...
but somehow it gives a little bit of the feeling...
i really need to grab hold of the opportunity...
treat those people who are close to me really close...

To all my close friends...
sorry for not being there when you have need
sorry for not listening when you feel like talking
sorry for being selfish
sorry for not being a good friend to you...
i just want to tell all my friends..
I love you!
I really treasure and appreciate the friendship...
but I'm really bad with expressing and following up...
I wish all the best... I pray that God will bless you richly...
take care my friends

Brand new experiences

2011-06-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

went to Cambodia from 18-25June...
with 10 TnTs we tread on the soil of this wonderful land...
went there some 8 years ago...
yet there are lots of new experiences...
it's my first time leading all working adults for missions
it was my first time really tried hard not to do too much...
so that i can give way for others...
(haha, the team will laugh at this...
coz i conveniently 'let them do')
(but seriously, i need to remind myself not do so much)
it was my first time to Takeo...

there are many more new experiences throughout the trip...
but one really excite me was the encounter of praying for Davy...

that morning we went for house visitation,
Maggie, Serene, and I went with Davy and Srey Len...
at the end of the visitation we prayed for them..
one of the lady said she has back ache...
so we prayed for her...
on our way back, i told Davy...
"next time when u go back, ask if she still have back ache...
if yes, then measure her leg.. maybe she has long-short leg problem"
then she looked puzzle, so i said...
"u have back ache?" "Yes," she answered...
i was excited because i know can 'teach' them how to pray...

so when we reach the mission house, i sat her down on a chair..
then with proper 'measuring way' (too long to describe)...
realized that Davy's left leg was shorter than her right leg by about an inch...
at that time Srey Len was locking the gate...
(Argie, Maggie, Serene, and Pei Kee were around)
i wanted Srey Len to learn as well...
so while holding Davy's legs, i called for Srey Len...
she quickly turn back and walked to us...
it was juz 2-3 steps distance...
but by the time Srey Len came near...
Davy's left leg grew!!!
YUP, without any prayer...
it just GREW!!!
i have prayed for a lot of long-short leg cases...
but it's my very first encounter....
without any prayer and the leg grew...
wow, i am juz so amazed...

Indeed, when we go out and preach the good news,
signs and wonders will follow...
Lord, Your word is true!

good call

2011-06-16T11:23:00.000+08:00

ever wonder some random decisions are guided by the Lord?
of coz if one keeps thinking about 'is it the Lord' then it's really tiring...
but i truly believe that steps of the righteous man are guided by Him...
not that i can be considered as righteous but since He called me, so I am...

anyway, this is what happened...
yesterday was filled with lots of events in the morning...
went to pastors fellowship and promoted Juwita's concert...
it was at Taman Sutera so when it ended wanted to come back straight away
but kesian Sonny as he has a meeting till 1plus and thereafter has no transport to come...
so, i stayed on..
i was blessed to be sat the meeting where they discussed about Karen ministry...
i was there last year so it was really exciting to hear the progress of that place...

came back to JB, saw angela in church and ask me if we still going to watch movie...
made a few calls (while on my way to remove idols)...
but mostly said can't...
only Chin Lee said she doesn't mind to come up...
so, i said, ok lar....
but then angela said, aiya, why wanna bother her to come all the way up?
so, we cancelled the movie night...

supposed to have tea time with vincent but by the time everything settled, was about 5...
so, wanted to meet for dinner, then he replied his mum cooked...
so, no dinner juz chit chat...

suddenly received a call and we were both 'activated' - to go and minister to someone...
i mean, wow! what if i have agreed to go on with movie?
or what if i have gone to singapore? (wanted to)
no what if's..
coz the Lord was guiding and He made perfect call...
thank God last night was quite 'free' then we could go and minister...
it was good night.. indeed...

hard or easy... part 2

2011-05-30T09:08:00.000+08:00

what i wrote prior to this has turned into a Sunday sermon...
but it went further..
it went deeper...
it did not go the way of 'worship'
'love' was/is the fundamental issue...

with love and passion, the hardest thing will become easier...
with God's love filling our heart, everything will become easier..
I juz learned that when Jesus invited us into his rest...
He said we need to take up his yoke for it's easy..
we need to take up his burden, because it's light...
i think this is what He meant..
our life will go on.. either it's driven by the things of the world...
or driven by God's love, which never runs dry...
His love never ends, never fails...

And knowing how He sees me, what He wants me to be...
certainly help to make this journey easier...
This is my destiny...

hard or easy...

2011-05-16T10:45:00.001+08:00

what is hard to do? what is easy to do?
i guess it depends what are we talking about here...
it's easy to eat, drink, sleep, walk, to some.. run...
but is it really easy?
there are many out there who can't eat as normal people...
can't drink, sleep, walk, run normally...
to those people.. one of the tasks, or some tasks.. are hard to do...

many will perhaps think and agree that it's hard to do what God wants...
love your enemies... if people slap you on ur right, turn the other cheek for them...
reach out to the needy.. preach to the lost.. believing for miracle...
ok.. all these maybe really hard to do...
how about prayer? sharing of our testimony? serve God with our abilities?
Again, what is easy or hard to do?

as I am typing here, i am also being challenged...
and i think it boils to - our worship...
1 1/2 year ago i shared about the topic "worship"
and after 1 1/2 year i realized i am still learning about this...

is it hard to build a ship with just 8 people...
on a dry land, far from the coast?
that's a lot of effort i agree but it's not hard...
Noah and family did it...
and because God helped them, it was easy
and because he was obedient, it was easy

is it hard to run from your house for 1km and do not look back?
many probably can't run fast but it's still quite easy...
but it was hard for Lot's wife...
even when angel helped her to run but she looked back...
though God helped them but because she was unwilling...
it was hard to do...

so... i think the question is...
is God worthy of our effort?
is God worthy of our sacrifice?
is God worthy of our trust?
is God worthy of us letting go of our own mind?
is God worthy?

There's a saying.. whatever we worship, we become..
if God is worthy and we really worship Him...
then we will be more like Him...
what have becoming into?

what is easy to do? what is hard to do?
God gives grace to the humble but opposes the proud...
hmm, i think when we humble ourselves and ask for help..
it will be easy...

good learning curve

2011-05-12T09:13:00.000+08:00

what i posted yesterday i also posted something similar on FB...
then it has big big feedback...
many of them wanna grow taller...
there's one that kept me thinking...
"why a guy who has a height than is taller than the average still asking for more...
what is the point? and why God would answer such prayer...
while those who pray for a better nation hasn't got the prayer answered?"

of course it was all paraphrased...
and it really caused me to think a lot...
last night i couldn't sleep...
not because of this question but i think i drank too much caffeine...
but to my surprise, just as how God answered my request of my height...
the 'answer' came in the midst of my half-awake mind...

many believers are living above average than the poor...
and when they ask for more from God, God answered their prayer..
and many of them were encouraged by all those experience...
which also moved their heart to care for the needy...
many Christian businessmen are actively involve in helping the poor...

how do we turn each miracle, each prayer answered experience into action...
i guess is the point why God answer our prayer...
so that we can continue to pray for greater good...
pray for the needy, those who face calamity...
pray for our nation...

i learned from this round of 'conversation'...
it caused me to think wider and deeper..
Thank You Lord for teaching...
I am once again humbled and encouraged by this experience..

Unbelievable!!!

2011-05-11T15:10:00.000+08:00

Months ago, a missionary came to our church to train our youth...
to prepare them for missions... so that they know how to minister to others...
one of the session he trained them how to pray...
after praying for the sick, un-even legs, he posted a question...
"who wants to grow taller?"
no one dares to lift their hands, then Jabez raised his hand...
so he prayed a simple prayer...
those who were there saw that miracle...
Jabez grew by 1+cm... (not sure exactly how much)...

A week later Aaron (Chi En) shared in the cell..
so i responded, "pray for me lar.. i wanna grow taller"
i remembered clearly that my height was just 178cm..
anyway, they put a mark and Aaron prayed...
simple prayer... i was so full of faith as well...
but nothing...

many months later (i think it was last yr Oct or Nov...)..
which was yesterday... i met someone in church...
and he commented, "eh, you seemed to have grown taller"
of course i didn't believe...
but i was just thinking.. 'no harm measuring right?'
so i measured... twice...
the reading was... 179.4cm!!!!
I grew taller!
WOW, such prayer God also answer...
God really really loves us so so much...
I just wanna continue to believe Him...

how much it cost?

2011-05-01T12:40:00.002+08:00

1 Chronicles 21:24

But King David replied to Araunah, “No, I insist on paying the full price. I will not take for the LORD what is yours, or sacrifice a burnt offering that costs me nothing.”

it's a wonderful statement David made...

it's not something new, but this time it's so impactful...

with so many things happened and many of them are really pushing me to my limit...

then i felt God is asking me... are you willing to sacrifice?

then when i read the passage it spoke to me...

if it costs me nothing then what kind of sacrifice is it?

then if it's not a sacrifice, then it might not be from me at all...

Paul urges all God's people to offer ourselves as living sacrifices...

because it's a spiritual act of worship..

if every time when i offer praises and cost me nothing...

then how real, how true, how genuine is my worship to God?

if He's worthy then no matter how much more sacrifice, it's worth it...

i am willing to sacrifice my time... especially when i am hardpressed..

i am willing to sacrifice my comfort... together with my 'convenient'

i am willing to sacrifice my feel for tiredness... because He add strengths...

Thank You Jesus... Your unreserved sacrifice... even when i was a sinner...

thank You...

New Yahoo email

2011-04-23T10:57:00.002+08:00

this morning Yahoo just had an upgrade!
refreshing!
Yahoo promised that it will be faster...
hopefully is true bcoz the last upgrade really slow.. haha

Front page

Inbox

Email composing... really coolllzzz

AMEN....

2011-04-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

Heard this song from prayer meeting some weeks ago..
then learned that it's an Indonesian song...
have been searching and found this really nice version

apparently by Indonesian idols...

but that's not the focus, more importantly..
MUJIZAT IT NYATA, God's miracle is real!
Amen!

how to punctuate?

2011-04-20T17:28:00.000+08:00

saw this post in FB "下雨天留客天留我不留"
do u know how to punctuate? (sorry for those cannot understand)
3 kinds...
下雨天, 留客天, 留我不留?
下雨天留客, 天留我不留.
下雨天留客天, 留我不? 留!

eh, in English also have something similar...
"Woman without her man is nothing".. how to punctuate?
woman, without her, man is nothing,
woman, without her man, is nothing.

ha, how every sentence would sound, is how you punctuate, how you read...
God loves us.. God loves us? God? loves us... God loves us!!!

in fact how we 'interpret' a situation is very important..

will it be a crisis or opportunity, depends how we see it...

How Much Is A Trillion?

2011-04-14T19:51:00.001+08:00

How Much Is A Trillion?

read today's new and found out that US has a debt of 1 trillion dollar..

so i searched online and found out that it's a very very huge amount..

probably top 20 (or even up to 50) of the fortune 500 companies added up together would be able to pay it off...

i can't imagine how much stress is upon the president..

no wonder i hardly see him smile in all his recent photos...

never tire

2011-04-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

2 Thes 3:13
"Dear brothers and sisters, never get tired of doing good..."

Recent Sun was my stretching time...
about 11am, half way through the service i went out from Canaan Hall..
wanted to go to office and do some photocopies...
but the moment i came out, i saw an Indian talking to Aunt Su...
it seemed to be a heated up argument, so i stayed on...
after hearing the 'exchanged of words' i had some thoughts..
~ hmm, another trouble maker...
~ well, i need to settle him, how ler?
~ it's difficult...
but as i was having those thoughts, i felt God was speaking to me
"just be there, quiet and listen"
Though Aunt Su was handling him but stayed on...
about 5 mins later, the man stopped his comment...
i can't remember how but i kinda took over from there...
i also dunno how but he calmed down...
finally i suggested we have a cup of tea at Elim and he agreed...
after 30mins of talking, his attitude was totally different...
from grouchy and agitated, he became friendly and kinda happy...
i din know how did it happen but when i recall, i knew it was God...
He changed my mind, gave me ideas, helped me to be attentive...
i was glad that i made his day..
an elderly man come all the way from Kangkar Pulai isn't easy...
if i would juz judge him by that few sentences, then i'd miss my chance to be his friend...
i thank God for helping me...
helped me to see that life can be touched through simple gesture...

CASE 2...
same day - Sunday about 12:20pm, Lydia asked me to handle a case...
my meeting supposed to start at 1pm and i need to get everything done by 12.45pm...
so i have very limited time to it...
i actually rejected Lydia but she said really no one else able to do..
so i went...
then i met this middle age guy at church office...
initially i wanted to juz take down all the particulars so we can follow up later...
then i realized it's an urgent case...
suddenly my heart melt and really sympathized the man...
i know i can't do much but i felt for him...
so i patiently listened to his story...
and in the end prayed for him..
today i followup the case...
and i realized my heart cannot let go until i found some help...
thank God i found and finally my heart can feel a bit more at ease...
thank God for helping me...
helped me to see that life is more important than work...

God can use us to touch more lives, when we view them as...
- God's creation
- God's children
- precious gems to Him
God never grow tired ministering to us...
let us also not be weary in doing what is good, right & godly...

soon...

2011-04-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

many things are happening but i realized i don't have the eyes to see...
1. the 60's - 80's are talking about coming together and do something for God
2. WMM had one vocal training and another one coming...
3. 5 Alpha groups are running...
4. 2 more TnT cell started
5. Sat & Sun service's attendance are constantly having more people..
more importantly, all the items that mentioned above...
people are generally enjoying them and God's presence is getting more tangible...

I don't have the eyes to see..
it was my shi-fu pointed out to me...
and suddenly i felt, really exciting...

this morning a brother from Korea came and visited us...
he talked about how FGC can start doing video streaming...
and he's willing to help...

hey... it's getting more and more exciting...
soon..
soon, FGC will have new ministries, people lives will be touched.. and changed...
soon, JB will be more and more of God's presence - through His people
soon, Malaysia will have a special touch from the above...
soon... Christ is coming back soon...
oh.. it's so exciting!!

we plant the seeds

2011-04-06T19:14:00.001+08:00

learned a very important lesson today...
we plant the seed, God is the one that makes it grow...
i can't go into detail but all i can say is that...
All the efforts we put into people's life..
are never wasted...
one day, they will grow...
one day, they will bear fruit...
one day, we will enjoy the harvest...

sometimes the seeds will fly away...
but it's ok...
probably it meant to fly away...
when we grab it tight, it might be worse
let it fly because God knows where it goes...

we continue to plant the seeds...
somebody else will water it...
and God - the ultimate Gardener...
will make sure it grows...
even if we don't enjoy the fruit...
i'm sure it'd bless someone out there...
so... keep sowing...
keep planting...
keep spreading... :)

enjoying

2011-04-02T14:39:00.000+08:00

wow, saw this picture and immediately felt like blogging...
it's an expression of satisfaction...
enjoyment.. happyness (ha, the pursuit of happyness)

why? coz i am also enjoying..
enjoying the Sat afternoon where i can spend time
reading some nice blog posts..
and.. God's presence...

My Sat afternoon used to be so busy...
TEENz - getting ready for the service..
either prayer, preaching, leading something...
or juz observing (for improvement, my goodness)
but now...
juz time with God... and my lovely wife...
can spend time thinking about ministry, marriage and...
May (the month of May, not person).. what to do in May..
(haha, juz the sake of having another 'M')

dun wanna talk about money...
certainly not mahathir, maniam or mua-chi...
ha, see.. Sat afternoon, free and easy..
anything goes..
i am enjoying...

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2011-04-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

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Love shines through

2011-03-31T15:02:00.000+08:00

Tim Hughes latest cd...
Love shines through...

nice arrangement for some 'old' songs...
great arrangement for his new songs...

pretty good move by him,
where most of the famous group all quiet,
he becomes more active...

ha, when will be FGC's turn?
i seriously heard nice songs from our own people...
hmm.. let love, joy and peace shine through our songs..
eh?
juz continue to sing for the Lord...
♫♪♫ ♫♪♫ ♫♪♫ ♫♪♫

cool afternoon

2011-03-27T17:05:00.001+08:00

hey, u r not committee meh?
nope... i'm not...

sitting at another corner, i was a few tables away from another table..
a table for WMM retreat committee...
many were surprised that i am not part of the committee...

it's a bliss! :)
sitting with another group of friends, enjoying tea, movie, aircon, wireless... ha

then finally.. it rained...
still raining now...
after 2-3 weeks of hot weather, it finally rained...
wonder when will it come...
in spiritual realm...
it's been a long long time...
i am praying for a heavy down pour...
so that every soul can be moist and refresh...
let every broken relationship be mend, every wounded soul be healed...
every weary heart be ministered...
let it rain

Alpha..

2011-03-04T09:42:00.000+08:00

The Alpha course...
Alpha is the first alphabet of Greek, which means the beginning..
so.. it's the alpha of Alpha course..

from the preparation, launching, promo, 'pushing' and till tonite has been a wonderful journey..
wonderful doesn't mean all smooth sailing... i went through quite a lot...
was kinda 'lecture' by my boss bcoz i failed to see some important areas of Alpha...
then it's the lack of groups that want to run Alpha...
and not enough new friends in the beginning...
after that more groups, more friends...
then one group pull out...
that's a big blow to me...

But all these really has made this journey wonderful...
coz i learn a lot..
learn to response to rejection, disappointment and fear..
God has been there..
Not something new, a truth that i dunno..
but it's so nice to experience it...
it's great to feel the love...

smooth sailing isn't good after all...
going through stormy weather gave me a chance to know...
know His grace is sufficient...
it's my own 'Alpha course'...
is there more to life than this? Definitely!

so fast...

2011-03-02T17:21:00.000+08:00

it's already 2 March...
before i notice, 2 months has gone and soon.. it'll be May...
end of Alpha...
but i dun think i should wait till then...
really lots of things to prepare since the beginning of 2011..
lots of planning, scheduling and discussion...
ministry really doesn't stop...
if i don't..
not that i need to stop..
but take a break to recollect myself..
sometimes too busy is really bad...
because the after effect is terrible...
i realized i will go into a mode of 'don't care'..
which is bad...
going holiday soon...
not that i need a holiday...
but i do need time with my wife... :)
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
listening to instrumental..
so calm... the music...
sounded a bit sad...
that's how i feel inside...
i feel a little bit sad...
mayb because i think too much...
i have too many issues to handle...
which i really need God to help...
And, very often...
without me asking, He has been helping...
i owe Him so much...

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

after preaching "what is in your hand"
i realized God is so amazing, because it somehow fit into the whole flow of church theme...
i didn't plan it in such a way but God knows how..
that's something i am so amazed over and over again...
my God is so big... so strong and mighty...
yet come to me...
a tiny, insignificant me..
without much to offer i felt so silly...
make me the way Lord, You want me to be...

I was made for...

2011-02-13T08:39:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning and this song came into my heart...
(not written by me, lol... and it's really a wonderful song)
So many people are wondering why are they here for...
what is life all about...
all kinds of thought about life...
perhaps, the simple one will be...
I was made to be loved, and to love...

Loved By You
Paul Baloche and Lincoln Brewster
© Integrity Worship Music/ASCAP

River flow from Your throne
From Your heart through my soul
Healing flood God of peace
Speak Your word and quiet me

I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You (Jesus)

Mercy rain fall on me
Hide me now beneath Your wings
Hold me close to Your side
For I am Yours and You are mine

Open up wide Your arms and my eyes
Take all I have and make it Yours
You've given Your life and now I'm alive
To worship you now forevermore

I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You Jesus
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You Jesus
I was made to be loved by You
To be loved by You to be loved by You

feeling...

2011-02-01T10:09:00.002+08:00

whether animal or human, all have feelings...
fear, happy, excited, sad, troubled, nervous, lonely...
knowing how to stir each of the feeling it means manipulation...
knowing how to manage each of the factor that cause the feelings...
i suppose it's call self control..
35 years... i think i am still learning how to manage my own...
sometimes helping others to manage theirs..
but from time to time i found myself being stirred to feel...
and from time to time i found myself stirring others...
am i manipulative? am i being manipulated?
may the Lord help me..
so that i seek to help, not manipulate...
that i will be true not just a show...
i wanna be real
~ Lord prepare me, to be a sanctuary ~
~ this is real life... ~

really impressive

2011-01-29T11:42:00.001+08:00

the other day Yong Thai let me listen to one guitar solo...
really impressive...
found it in youtube...

I am like "Phuah" when i watch it...
must be lots of practices and hardwork...
of course he enjoyed.. and the best is, we enjoyed...
hmm, doing things that we enjoy and others also can enjoy...

Good leader

2011-01-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

re-watched Band of brothers...
not all, juz some parts..
seriously learn a little bit on leadership..
actually it takes a lot to be a good leader...
- always sacrifice...
- never give up, never give in...
- clear mind in the midst of chaos...
- good management of emotion and time...
a lot more...
i think this new year, i have a whole lot to learn...

Social network users now easy targets for criminals

2011-01-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

Social network users now easy targets for criminals

from The Star

wow, Malaysian finally top of the world... LOL
one of my friends really concern that i reveal too much...
be it blog, facebook or any other internet social network...
i agree and i know i have to be careful...
well, that's why i seldom use FB and i try not to disclose too much info...
sometimes we try to live a transparent lifestyle but...
there are so many out there trying to extra things...
well, we just have to be vigilant...

too many to ask?

2011-01-07T10:26:00.000+08:00

Came across this article...
helping Christians to live a more meaningful life..

The beginning of a new year is an ideal time to stop, look up, and get our bearings. To that end, here are some questions to ask prayerfully in the presence of God.

1. What's one thing you could do this year to increase your enjoyment of God?

2. What's the most humanly impossible thing you will ask God to do this year?

3. What's the single most important thing you could do to improve the quality of your family life this year?

4. In which spiritual discipline do you most want to make progress this year, and what will you do about it?

5. What is the single biggest time-waster in your life, and what will you do about it this year?

6. What is the most helpful new way you could strengthen your church?

7. For whose salvation will you pray most fervently this year?

8. What's the most important way you will, by God's grace, try to make this year different from last year?

9. What one thing could you do to improve your prayer life this year?

10. What single thing that you plan to do this year will matter most in ten years? In eternity?

perhaps you can try to ask those questions...
but maybe it's a little bit too many to ponder right at the beginning...
in fact, i stuck at question 3...
what will i do? what must i do?
what will you do?

New year resolution..

2010-12-31T17:33:00.001+08:00

Last time i thought 'resolution' means 're-solution' - getting new solution..
then only i found out is 'resolute' - determination...
so for a brand new year, of course we try to find new solution..
but more importantly, what is our new determination..
what we really want to do in the year to come...

i came across my friend's post in FB and i found it's really good

basic meaning is - why do we always admire/envy what others have?

we are not them, how are going to know the struggles and difficulties they face?

and since we are not them, why we envy something we aren't even sure?

i think for year 2011, i determine to do what is beneficial for:-

1. my relationship with God

2. my relationship with myself

3. my relationship with my family

4. my relationship with others...

not to admire how well others live...

how much they have...

how much i don't have...

If year 2011 is my last year on earth...

that's what i am going to do...

Thank God for 2011

Why 25th Dec?

2010-12-24T11:13:00.000+08:00

i heard this before but kinda forgot all the time....
thank God someone send me this article, so i better archive it somewhere...

By the 3rd century CE, there were many religions being followed within the Roman Empire. Many, if not most, celebrated the birth of their gods near the time of the winter solstice. Emperor Aurelian (270 to 275 CE) blended a number of solstice celebrations of the nativity of such god-men/saviors as Appolo, Attis, Baal, Dionysus, Helios, Hercules, Horus, Mithra, Osiris, Perseus, and Theseus into a single festival called the "Birthday of the Unconquered Sun" on DEC-25. At the time, Mithraism and Christianity were fierce competitors.

Christianity eventually won out by becoming the new official religion in the 4th century CE. CHRISTIANITY: By the beginning of the 4th century CE, a day was chosen to celebrate Jesus' birthday. The church leaders selected DEC-25 because this was already the date recognized throughout the Roman Empire as the birthday of various gods. Instead of abolishing it, they have decided to convert it into the celebration of the birth of the God of gods.

Many symbols and practices associated with Christmas are of 'Pagan' origin: holly, ivy, mistletoe, yule log, the giving of gifts, decorated evergreen tree, magical reindeer, etc. In Massachusetts, Puritans unsuccessfully tried to ban Christmas entirely during the 17th century because of this. The English Parliament actually abolished Christmas in 1647!

While men can argue that it is not possible that Jesus Christ was actually born on December 25th or any time near that, it does not change the fact that Jesus Christ, Son of God and Savior of mankind, was born on Christmas ("Christ-Mass") Day (not December 25th)! The date of December 25th was chosen out of convenience and also emphasized that His birth was above the births of all known pagan gods. He is truly the God of gods and Lord of lords! His miraculous birth can not be contained in any man-made calender! To Him be the Glory forever and ever, Amen!

Happy birthday my lovely Jesus...

Some reasons why our eyes can't be trusted

2010-12-23T11:17:00.005+08:00

Found this in the internet.. really interesting

Do you feel that the one on the right leans more than the one of the left?
Well, the 2 pictures are actually identical...
it's our brain that misinterpret as it takes it as one scene...
where 2 parallel buildings suppose to have a common vanishing point...
so when it doesn't then our brain tells us that it's leaning on a different angle.

Another example (click on it to enlarge - for reading)...

That is why the Bible tells us not to live by sight...
but by faith..
trusting in God who loves us so much..
trusting in His word which lasts forever..
trusting in His ways because it's higher..
Live by faith... not by sight...

你明了吗？

2010-12-21T17:03:00.000+08:00

"上善若水，大象无形"...
今天与师父们开会....
忽然间就提出了这一句话...
search 了Google, 原来出自"老子"...
简单来说就是 - 良善的生命不强迫但却强有力的影响人...
hmmm.. 很像耶稣嘛...
耶稣良善，属神的生命那么强有力的影响着全世界...
但耶稣从来也不强迫任何人...
原来老子也认识耶稣？

anyway, 身为耶稣的代言人...
我们都应该有如此的生命...
当我们一直培养耶稣的生命...
影响必定深远...
上善若水，大象无形!!!

You know?

2010-12-18T13:04:00.001+08:00

William Franklin "Billy" Graham, Jr.
Known as 'Billy Graham' is now 92 years old.

In January 2000, leaders in Charlotte, North Carolina, invited their favorite son, Billy Graham, to a luncheon in his honor.

Billy initially hesitated to accept the invitation because he struggles with Parkinson's disease. But the Charlotte leaders said, 'We don't expect a major address. Just come and let us honor you.' So he agreed..

After wonderful things were said about him, Dr. Graham stepped to the rostrum, looked at the crowd, and said, 'I'm reminded today of Albert Einstein, the great physicist who this month has been honored by Time magazine as the Man of the Century. Einstein was once traveling from Princeton on a train when the conductor came down the aisle, punching the tickets of every passenger. When he came to Einstein, Einstein reached in his vest pocket. He couldn't find his ticket, so he reached in his trouser pockets. It wasn't there, so he looked in his briefcase but couldn't find it. Then he looked in the seat beside him. He still couldn't find it.

The conductor said, 'Dr. Einstein, I know who you are. We all know who you are. I'm sure you bought a ticket. Don't worry about it.' Einstein nodded appreciatively. The conductor continued down the aisle punching tickets. As he was ready to move to the next car, he turned around and saw the great physicist down on his hands and knees looking under his seat for his ticket.

The conductor rushed back and said, 'Dr. Einstein, Dr. Einstein, don't worry, I know who you are No problem.You don't need a ticket. I'm sure you bought one.' Einstein looked at him and said, 'Young man, I too, know who I am. What I don't know is where I'm going.''

Having said that Billy Graham continued, 'See the suit I'm wearing? It's a brand new suit. My children, and my grandchildren are telling me I've gotten a little slovenly in my old age. I used to be a bit more fastidious. So I went out and bought a new suit for this luncheon and one more occasion.

You know what that occasion is? This is the suit in which I'll be buried. But when you hear I'm dead, I don't want you to immediately remember the suit I'm wearing. I want you to remember this:
I not only know who I am .. I also know where I'm going.'

Indeed, it's really dreadful to start a journey without knowing where to go to, worst is when one doesn't even know who is he...

That's why 2000 years ago someone came and start a new celebration - Christmas...
celebrate the birth.. the way, the truth and the life...
Thank You Jesus, now I am found and I know where am I heading to. :)

exegesis.. eisegesis..

2010-12-16T11:01:00.002+08:00

normally after i got my sermon outline i'll send to Chong Hiang..

he then will criticize, comments, and give correction...

it has been like that i really learned a lot..

for this weekend sermon, i did the same thing...

then i got this phrase from him...

"it looks like you going more eisegesis rather than exegesis.."

i was like 'huh?' what's that?

i heard exegesis before, it means drawing out the meaning from the text..

eisegesis? hmm... so i did a search...

well, wikipedia has answer.. very long one...

the basic explanation is "reading in the text" i.e. introducing own ideas...

rather than drawing out meaning, it's the opposite...

aiyo, serious...

personally i think it's dangerous and i don't wish to go into it...

because it will soon be like heresy, false teacher..

wah, i must be careful...

this is the reason why Christians needs to have proper input...

from church - good and biblical teaching from those who study the words...

from cell - a good discussion with other Christians will help to give holistic perspective...

from mentor - pointing out the fundamental truth

from mature Christians who love God - the years of experience will give good direction...

God gives grace to the humble...

when we humble ourselves to learn, we will always improve...

when we are willing to listen, we will become wise...

I am learning...

exam? test? assessment...

2010-12-15T11:26:00.002+08:00

i think all the words up there means similar thing...

- to find out how much you really know on the things you learn...

actually it's really good you know?

schooling days i never like any of them coz it means i gotta study more..

but as i grow older, then i realized...

sometimes after study a lot, heard a lot, doesn't mean i really know..

know it by heart...

anyway, it was yesterday...

during full time staffs meeting...

Kim Tai shared..

i heard them before, in fact was juz a week plus ago..

his style (for those who doesn't know) - going ard asking question while he preaches...

so, i wasn't too worried, coz i heard them before mah...

of coz i didn't sit back and relax... i was taking down notes...

then he came over and asked me a question...

"how do we develop a life of holiness?"

I didn't expect and i was shock... (didn't think he'll ask me)"

"err.. humble ourselves and learn from Jesus?"

hahaha, wrong...

then i heard Hui Qin said (discreetly) "wah, exam time..."

i felt so embarrassed...

anyway, the answer is, "see, hear, think, speak, do - 看, 听, 想, 讲, 行"...

i know the answer, i was telling Yan the night before...

but i don't know the answer...........

when i don't know when to apply - i don't know

when i don't know how to apply - i don't know

when i don't know which to apply - i don't know

when i think i know but never constantly know the application - i don't know

when i can't pass on - i don't know

when i can't share it off hand, without looking at my notes - i don't know..

wah, lots of things i don't know...

actually, nothing to be embarrassed about...

assessment is good, coz it showed me that i still have much to learn..

good.. keep me humble, keep me learning, keep me on my knees...

just think...

2010-12-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

Past few days, a phenomenon (if i may use this word) is happening in my life...

I think it was Wednesday's evening...

I was thinking about finding Alan and Jeyshin for lunch...

then Thursday morning...

I received 2 smses, from 2 persons, about 30 mins apart (1st and 2nd sms)...

both asked about similar thing... same timing though...

"wanna go for lunch?"...

1st sms from Alan... 2nd sms from Jeyshin...

i couldn't believe it...

But it happened.. so we went for lunch...

Sat night...

i was playing guitar for Angela (who led worship... wonderful worship we had)...

then i saw Peter and Poh Lee walked into Canaan hall...

then a thought came into my mind...

"hmm, i think it's been a while we had supper..."

i didn't do any arrangement, didn't expect anything...

anyway after service they left quite promptly...

then Chong asked us out for supper...

Sure... though i was kinda craving for garlic naan but we went to meehunkueh...

when we reach that place, guess who were there?

You're right.. Peter and Poh Lee (Vynn and Joyce were there too)...

wow... it was just... amazing...

Sat afternoon saw Edwin's name while i was doing cell listing...

then i was thinking.. "hmm, long time didn't eat with him"..

guess what? Sun he came to English service...

Usually my Sun will be packed with meetings, and other stuff...

but today, i was free... surprisingly...

So, Edwin and i went for lunch (with others as well)..

Ha...

God is just amazing...

those that i wish to find all appeared and we had meals...

indeed He is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above what we can think...

or even ask... even for makan.. :)

God is so creative...

踩

2010-12-11T14:02:00.002+08:00

最近发现在网上有“顶” 与 “踩”...

才知道是英文版的 "like" 与 "dislike"...

hmm... 那么当我们“踩”人时...

是不是就意味着我们 "dislike" 那个人呢?

那当我们 "dislike"时，也就同时踩了那人一脚吧...

No wonder i have not "dislike" anything so far...

perhaps i am thinking.. i dun quite like the feeling of kena "dislike"..

so i won't do it...

那平日我们“互踩”时，那是不是在互相"dislike"呢...

情何以堪啊...

决定不踩了... 决定不贬了...

因为别人并不好受...

(ehh, sound like a song.. lol) (自踩)

Narnia

2010-12-09T21:02:00.003+08:00

waited for this episode for a long long time..

right after Prince Caspian i have been waiting..

when it comes, i am so so happy...

watch the trailer make me really 'lao nuah'...

when i came back from China, i asked Angela if she wanna watch...

she said ok...

but realize Tues holiday, so Mon last screening was 4.30pm

Tues only one screening time, 7.45pm..

cannot go coz got meeting.

Finally, Wed came and Yan jioh us to go for movie.. ON!!

Well, the whole set of Narnia is my very first English story book that i ever finish reading..

i tried Left Behind, i can only leave it behind because lots to read..

but when Angela introduced this series, i was hooked by it...

i read it day and night..

i love the story and its plot, very well done Lewis (as if i know him well, lol)

so when movie producer decided to take the challenge to shoot to into a movie..

i am so overjoyed...

The movie is in 3D (which i dun think is necessary)

(frankly, all the 3D movie that i watched are all unnecessary, normal would be enough)

and i think the all the actors and actresses did a fairly good job...

i particular think that Eustace was a lovable character...

the boy that acted was really suitable for that character...

i like the way the portray Aslan, gentle but firm, fear-able but approachable...

i am so touched by King Caspian last few words... (paraphrase)

"we spent too much time looking at the things we have lost but never realized how much we have been given"

even though it's like fairy tales, those mystical kind...

but this show has lots of hopeful and joyful element...

it's really an inspiring show - life is a journey to get to know God more...

God, I want to know You more...

Joyful trip...

2010-12-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

it's really a wonderful trip coz i learned lots of things...

let me juz share one here..

** part of my journal

Seriously I think Kim Tai’s message is really good and practical, even though I don’t really like some of his style and illustration (though I can’t think of any better one yet) but it was really helpful that I think everyone, especially leaders should listen because it has the effect of bringing one to a point of understanding self and God’s will. The only

thing is that because he’s Chinese speaking, it might not sound that effective if it’s in English or translated. Hopefully Chong Hiang can do something about it. I think those denying-self examples are really good. When we expect others to do well, understand us, accept us, then we are putting our own happiness in the hands of others. Then it’s too passive. Jesus promised us to have an abundant life, and then even if it’s passive it should be in God’s hand which God already promised us that no matter what He will do it. So in another word, we do not have to be passive, when we actively engage with God, His word, His leading, His Spirit then we will always live a victorious life. Really, joy is not hard to have, it’s already given to us, and it’s up to us to choose if we want to be happy. Many perceptions needed to be changed and I don’t think one time listening has much effect. But i thank God for this opportunity. It’s really good for me,I think it’s beneficial for me in my ministry.

after angela read this, she's was encouraged and she put it into practice.. so this is wat happened..

one of the morning, she noticed the rubbish outside our house is being messed up (dunno by dog or what) so she took sometime to clear it, then after she cleared lots of things (really a lot) from the house, so she took the rubbish out, and she noticed all neighbors rubbish were cleared.. at that time she saw a rubbish truck near our

house.. she was happy but they drove passed without taking those rubbish. at that time she was really mad and thought, 'why they so lazy?' and she was worried if rubbish kena mess up again. so she was like, very uneasy and furious. but there and then she remembered what i wrote so she prayed to God and decided to be joyful, "why allow anything to rob my joy," she said to herself.. and she kinda forgot about and remain joyful.. then finally when she reach home, rubbish were all cleared!! praise God and she was really excited about it!!

So, remember what the bible said, which is God's heart's desire, be joyful always!! rejoice in the Lord!!!

Have a joyful day!

Alone... not anymore...

2010-11-28T05:47:00.002+08:00

By the time we reached Singapore budget terminal, was about 1.30am…

Angela and Dot stayed for a while and left…

Thank God for kids playground where they have soft-non-cold-ground…

Since no kids, I slept at one corner (there were two other men sleeping there)…

I think I slept a while, not soundly but barely… lol…

But better than sitting at a chair and wait for the time passes…

Decided to wake up, wow, it’s about 4.25am…

Packed up and line up @ the check-in counter…

Picked a window seat, coz I dun think I’m gonna go toilet…

Probably juz sleep in…

Thank God that I check in slightly earlier…

Coz after I checked in, the queue was juz so so long…

Bought myself a long waited pancake breakfast @ McD (Msia’s version not nice)(do we even have?)…

Surprisingly met a friend here.. Jacob…

A Subang church pastor, going holiday with his wife…

He asked me, ‘alone? Mission trip?’

LOL.. I dunno what trip is this…

Alone, yes and no.. Yes I am alone now.. No later when I meet someone, not alone…

But what trip is this? Err..

Not mission.. dunno wat you call it..

So I said, ‘sort of…’ wat kind of answer?

After I sat down.. then a thought came…

“nope, not alone… I have Father, Son, Holy Spirit traveling together…”

Yep, the whole gang… :-)

Never alone.. God never let me go alone…

Thank you Jesus..

Heaven on earth...

2010-11-27T09:29:00.003+08:00

yesterday's cell was amazing...

we didn't discuss last week sermon but we had a special sharing...

after TAWG, i was looking at Aaron and he said, 'ok, let me share...'

so he started sharing last Sat's TEENz service...

Jeff Yuan from COS came to share in TEENz..

the main thing is to spur the teenagers for year end mission...

the title is 'Heaven on earth...'

Interesting questions he posts..

"Is heaven your destination or....?"

well, the answer is, "heaven is your assignment..."

Jesus taught the disciples how to pray...

"Let Your kingdom come..."

he then shared many interesting stories...

how he minister and impacted lives in his working place (before he join full time)...

how a young pastor in Singapore helped a prostitute to get her life back...

stories that showed how God can use His children to bring heaven on earth...

After TEENz service, they had mission training...

so he prayed for different needs ('show' the young people how to pray for the needy)...

then he called, "anyone wanna grow taller?"

Well, a few lifted their hands...

And J**** was one of them...

So Jeff prayed for him and according to Aaron and those who were there...

J**** grew an inch!!!

WOW! i have never heard that before...

pray for people to grow taller...

So while Aaron was showing the video clip (he video-ed it using he Iphone)...

then Vincent (TAN) asked me if he is having uneven length of legs?..

well, i 'checked' (details must show you) him...

his left leg is shorter than right leg by 1cm+

doesn't matter?

Not really, Vince had back ache for quite some time..

(apparently James-the father had the same problem)..

So i prayed.. simple prayer..

"Lord, thank You for giving us authority..

now i command the left leg to grow..."

after about 1 minute (mayb less than that)...

Vince left leg grew...

Joel (Ee Kiat) was just beside me, said "oh, it grew..."

indeed, it grew...

Vince stood up and said, "hey, it's different now!"

Aaron's ending note was this (Jeff's ending note also)

we all read and know that the bible says, "All God's promises are Yes and Amen"

God says "Yes"... Will His people say "Amen" and go?

We the Children of God

Almighty God is our Father...

Heaven on earth... AMEN

Crazy...

2010-11-24T10:49:00.003+08:00

Nech said, "i have never been to Ipoh..."

Dave said, "i've been there once, but i was a young boy then..."

Okie...

we'll go, let's go..

when? erm.. Sultan's birthday lah, holiday...

Okie, "ON"

"Hey Yan, wanna go with us?"

"....need to take care of my cousin ler.."

"aiyo, can settle wan la... come la"

....... "ok, settled.. going?"

"OK"

That was how the recent trip came about...

come and think about it, quite crazy...

1st of all, juz because someone never been, so we go...

2nd, juz because dave's family din mind, 6 squeezed into 2 rooms...

while dave squeezed into parents' room (thx bro, so paiseh)

3rd, juz because food is nice in Ipoh, so we go...

4th, dun really know Yan's cousin but because we so determine to go, so go...

but like the song said,

it's crazy when love gets hold of u...

it's making you to do something crazy...

fong le... haha.. i like it...

When was the last time you do something crazy?

careful, the love of God can cause u to do something crazy...

:) but i love it..

Trading sorrows

2010-11-20T18:00:00.004+08:00

i think it can consider an old song...

but the meaning still speaks to me a lot...

i felt so encouraged when i first heard it...

~ i lay them down for the joy of the Lord...

i remember i said this when i led the song...

"hey, this is the best deal ever,

you give away what you don't want,

what is not good, what is not helpful,

in exchange for the best in the world...

the Lord, His joy, His touch..."

after so so many years of 'knowing' the song...

it then occur to me that the 2nd part of the bridge...

is actually taken from the bible..

Ps 30:5 "..weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning..."

Message version, "The nights of crying your eyes out give way to days of laughter."

Wow, for nights that anyone cries.. but when it comes to morning, it juz give way...

give way to laughter...

no sorrows should stay..

no worries should take the main seat...

Ps 30:1 I will praise you, LORD, for you have rescued me.

You refused to let my enemies triumph over me.

Do you have God on your side?

Have you been trading correctly?

Deal...

2010-11-19T13:54:00.003+08:00

some time ago someone (SL) introduced a game to us..

it's called "Monopoly deal"

well, the idea is that you muz have 3 full sets to win the game..

and since then many many many (really a lot) people started playing..

the game is played during...

wedding dinner (while waiting for food), teh tarik, before & after cell,

family gathering, friends gathering, any other gathering..

at starbucks, mamak, McD, KFC, fine dining place, etc...

different age group also were introduced...

from one cell to TnT, to WAF, CBC...

(wonder if what is the percentage in FGC who knows this game)..

angela is one of those who 'propagates' this 'skill set'...

many of her students now know how to play this game..

(Please understand, it's during free time, non-exam period, so no worries)

well, the age of her students are between 5-12..

so, do u think the 5 yrs old wanna be out?

Nope, they wanna play this game also

But, one of the prints on the box is "Age 8+"..

Who cares?

Angela taught them..

among them, Zhong Han and Heng Xuan (the boys)

learned and pretty good with it..

it took her some effort to explain..

but she did it..

wow, who says muz be 8 and above..

perhaps can send to Parker the video clip..

show them how the kids played...

haha, i know one boy who is only about 8+..

not only know how to play but win the game!

Mayb this is why Chinese always very good in business...

LOL... angmo can't comprehend the power of chinese brain...

Psalms 27

2010-11-16T18:41:00.003+08:00

this is a rather long passage...one of the verse is actually the focal point for TnT this year..

but today as i read again...
i came upon this word and it comforted me...

v.10 though my father and mother forsake me,
but the Lord will receive me...

how many people today actually felt so rejected...
rejected by parents, siblings, relatives, friends, boss, etc..
the list just goes on..
rejection is such a real issue today...and many people are reacting towards to 'phenomenon'..
but they they don't have answer, no way out..

David, a guy who is so so famous...
in his time, in history, in our time..
was rejected also...
when i preach about David, i saw that in the record...
when Samuel came and anoint the new king...
David's father called all the brothers to come...
except David...
but the Lord never forgets him...well, it was a good ending...
David was anointed and eventually became king...
this is what he said, "the Lord receive me..."

Yes, God our Father receives us...
He accepts us as who we are, the way we are...

In conclusion, David said the following...
wait for the Lord, be strong and take heart...
and wait for the Lord...and at this point, i happened to listen to this song...
~ strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord...

Yes Lord, I'll wait for You...
the man who killed giant waited for Him..
why be hasty when God ask us to wait?

And i shall also be confident of this...

I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of living..

yup.. while i am alive, my life will be filled with his goodness :)

收拾

2010-11-15T14:08:00.002+08:00

不久前才'blog'关于凌乱的环境
想一想，许多时候需要收拾的...
不知是屋子，心情，关系，还是思绪...

屋子的凌乱可能比较容易，
至于心情，关系和思绪就难了点...

心情好象新山的天气，晴时多云偶阵雨...
阵雨时又常常忘记打伞，
有时弄得自己满身湿透，
难以自拾，难以自拔...

关系是像家里的电路，零乱里却有些次序...
复杂中又有些条理...
也许人与人之间就是如此...
无需每样事都完美...
争吵中找出协调，误会中找出谅解，
彼此间找出同样的步伐，同样的信念...

也许思绪是最难的...
有人说人脑想的速度比口能说的快20倍...
年轻时写故事就是如此，
才开始写第一段故事就已经想到结局...
结果是... 没写完，因为太多太多要写了...
hmmm... 这也是自己要学习的...
不要单单的想.. 要快快的去实行...
但又不能鲁莽，草率...
有朋友说,"你想太多了"...
真的吗？但，我就是这样吧，想很多...
要收拾思绪，可能要永远
写下来吧...
那不是要想更多？

"我的意念高过你的意念"
主，愿你的意念常驻扎在我脑里，
让我的思绪在你光中前行

New Developments...

2010-11-13T09:28:00.003+08:00

Many news albums on the market..

Hillsong chapel, (2011 Hillsong's new album)...

Jeremy Camp also has a new album...

not many new songs but some 'redo' of some 'old' songs...

MSCP is finishing soon...

had a new name too - The EDEN...

more details will be given

New theme for 2011 has decided - Touching People Changing Lives

New songs has been written for the theme...

New (not really that new la) vision casting path has been chart out...

I suppose as 2010 coming to an end...

all these developments somehow help us to look forward..

Yet last night sermon sharing is a good reminder...

Are we fruitful?

Not only physically, but also mentally, spiritually...

Is our character getting more and more fruitful?

Is our spiritual life growing?

Are we excited about God more?

And i recalled Chong Hiang question during the recent leaders' meeting..

do we love Jesus more? today? Right now?

God desires His bride to be fruitful...

Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness...

GOD, Your kingdom come, Your will be done...

Amen! Amen...

Hillsong Chapel

2010-11-12T08:30:00.006+08:00

Hey, there's a new version of Hillsong's songs...

it's called the Hillsong Chapel...

Quieter version of Salvation is here

Yahweh

this is the description:

Hillsong Chapel is an intimate and devotional collection of Hillsong songs, both recent and beloved, by the Hillsong Team. Recorded live in the Hillsong Chapel in March 2010, "Yahweh" is the first instalment in this organic contemplative expression of praise and worship. Comprised of 13 songs carefully rearranged to be more intimate, this project is perfect for smaller gatherings and will help resource smaller congregations with the favourites from Hillsong Live and Hillsong United. It is also ideal for your own personal devotional and meditative times of worship.

Here's the full playlist in youtube

well, really not bad...

seems like many people turning towards quieter music...

acoustic, lesser musical instrument, smaller hall...

perhaps FGC can do one?

Here in Your presence

2010-11-11T18:15:00.003+08:00

was preparing song list for 21 Nov...

then came across this song...

not gonna sing it but was really ministered by this song...

can't find a better way to describe...

this song says it all

found in Your hands. fullness of joy

every fear suddenly wiped away

here in Your presence

all of my gains now fade away

every crown no longer on display

here in Your presence

heaven in trembling in awe of Your wonders

the kings and their kingdom are standing amazed

here in Your presence, we are undone

here in Your presence, heaven and earth become one

here in Your presence, all things are new

here in Your presence, everything bows before You

No wonder psalmist says..

Better is one day in Your courts than thousands else where...

I'll dwell in Your house forever and ever...

62:01

2010-11-11T10:37:00.003+08:00

this number came to me when i was trying to do my monthly claim...

and i saw the 3 petrol receipt.. and i couldn't believe my eyes...

3 different dates, 3 different pump, 2 different people, 1 petrol kiosk, same amount...

PHUAW!!! How it came about, i don't know...

when i showed it to AK, she said "wah, is it a sign to buy 4D?" LOL (she did)

i lol also... of coz i know it's not that...

SO, what's the point here?

I dunno, but i decided to search through the bible...

and you know what?

there's only 2 books in the bible have chapter more than 60..

guess?

that's right, Psalms and Isaiah...

Psalms 62:1 "Truly my soul finds rest in God...

my salvation comes from Him."

Isaiah 62:1 "For Zion’s sake I will not keep silent,

for Jerusalem’s sake I will not remain quiet,

till her vindication shines out like the dawn,

her salvation like a blazing torch."

I was rather excited when i read this..

SALVATION... ya, i am reminded that He saved me...

There's no coincident in this world...

God planned and He carried out...

though there's a natural law and men's free will..

yet, His plan never fails, His mercy never ends...

He is good, all the time, all my life...

Because He will not keep silent, He's for me...

therefore my soul finds rest in Him...

simplicity

2010-11-10T00:24:00.003+08:00

juz before going to bed, a thought came...

easy task, we handle; difficult task, God handles...

a statement by Kim Tai...

of coz it makes lots of sense...

but i recall times when i face difficult situation...

i really wanted to leave it to God...

expected Him to do some miracle...

but... nothing happen...

that few days and weeks and months...

situation didn't change at all...

then i realize...

what so difficult is - me trusting Him...

(but, really nothing happen wor, how not to worry? panic?)

so while waiting, He did something in me...

well, it depends how you see it...

anyway, miracle happened, not with the situation..

but me... God did a miracle... IN ME...

I am the difficult one...

coz i have my own thoughts, own liking, own will...

i choose my way... how often i allow Him lead?

God is trying to help me to be simple...

juz walk by faith, not by sight...

abide in Him, never turn away...

all very simple...

so long ME willing to do it...

God didn't want me to change myself on my own...

Bible says we are renewed day by day!

Difficult tasks God handles...

Simple task, let me handle...

and... if God is for us, who can stop us?..

from changing, from trusting, from growing...

Karung guni?

2010-11-08T12:24:00.005+08:00

last night watched CSI S11 E5...

it's about a lady with Compulsive Hoarding...

it was really bad..

according to the show, she's having a level 5 symptoms...

She has so much things (ya, almost uncountable)...

that she didn't realize there's a dead body in her house...

well, it's a very complicated case and much info..

so i shall not go into the details...

this morning went to old house to clear things..

at the same time bring things back to current house (selling the old house away)...

then AK was really fed up coz already got lots of things in our house...

she said, "u r having a level 3 symptoms..."

ya... i like to keep old things...

always think that one day, i might use it...

but i dun think i am level 3.. probably level 2.. LOL...

suddenly i remember what the Bible said...

remember the Isa 43:18...

Forget the former things, do not dwell in the past...

have we kept too many old things in us?

past hurts, painful memories, old scores...

what's the level of Compulsive Hoarding in our spiritual life?

I, II, III, IV, V?

As 2010 coming to an end, it's time to start cleaning up a bit...

perhaps the only 'old thing' we should keep is... The Ancient One

the 'old way' that we should keep is... The Ancient Path

Even so, The Ancient of Days says...

"See, I AM doing a new thing!"

"to the New Creation!"

Amen! I am renewed day by day...

Different taste..

2010-11-07T14:55:00.004+08:00

went to Ka-ka-lok bitter gourd with Angela, Dave and Nech...

half way through the meal Nech said..

"eh, it's a bit different taste hor? more bitter ler..."

LOL...

I said, "sure la, bitter gourd ma, maybe people complaint that not bitter enough..."

As i reach home, i realize somehow it causes me to ponder...

what is Sunday all about?

i remember a few Sundays ago...

it was so so busy, that i hardly got a chance to rest...

so by Mon i was dead tired...

but today, Sunday, not a busy way...

so free that i am now blogging...

I recalled that i kinda wish that Sun can be of a different 'taste'

And ya... it's a different taste...

I like the previous ones, i like this one...

I love to be with people, i enjoy to be alone too...

I love to feel God so close to me...

I enjoy times that i could hardly feel Him...

There I find myself seeking Him more and more...

Thank God for life, never the same everyday..

with Him, everyday is a new taste...

Treasure...

2010-11-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

saw this today, really impressed by him...

his guitar skill is so 'geng'...

anyway... it's a song about his daughter...

how he treasures the time with her..

.. while she still around...

ya... treasure...

we spent lot of our time to find treasures...

least that we know, we have so much...

perhaps when we start to treasure what we have...

then we will lots of treasure...

search no more, treasure is around us..

Jesus said, 'where your treasure is, there your heart will be also..'

have we given our heart to our loved ones?

Psalms 26

2010-11-04T09:05:00.003+08:00

David cried out..

"vindicate me, test me, try me, examine me....

for i led a blameless life..."

Oh my, what a daring cry...

i mean, this is not a cry to normal human court...

it's before God, the Almighty..

yet David did that...

he really led a blameless life?

or he knows it well that through God his life has been made new?

didn't search in any commentaries..

i'm juz so attracted by this passage...

i remember Wendy Ching talked about how we must live a holy life...

only those with clean hands and pure heart can ascend to God's mountain...

both written by David...

it's our aim and call to live a holy life...

but it's God who make us holy...

because no matter how much we can try...

we will not be able to reach His standard..

so, not trying to match His standard..

coz it's juz impossible for us...

it's for us to desire, pursue, run after...

and His strength will assist, help and enable us...

ya, dun try to live godly life without God..

godly life = live life with God in mind, heart, with His strength...

David's heart is always the same...

to be able to stand before the Lord...

come to Him and worship Him freely..

He made him holy, he pursue His holiness..

what a beautiful love relationship...

Remembering you..

2010-11-03T14:29:00.010+08:00

During the trip, one of the lunch breaks, i went around the church...

i was curious about those 70 kids, what they do during lunch break...

first i saw a few kids under a big tree...

they were not playing anything but juz 'lepak'..

went over to take photos...

initially they were quite reluctant...

but i kinda insisted..

so, they finally agreed..

to me, it was a precious expression...

those innocent faces...

i was a bit 感慨...

coz i know soon they will grow up..

and they won't be so innocent anymore...

then i walked further and saw a few boys playing around a table..

from far, it looked like chess...

i was surprise so i went nearer..

then i realized, it wasn't our normal chess...

they used stones as pieces...

but the movement were totally different...

don't know how they actually play so i stood for a while...

after 5mins, still dunno what is it actually...

i couldn't find out, coz we can't communicate...

another time i was 感慨, coz they dun have proper chess..

yet, do they need? they dun have outside influence...

yet they figure out a way to utilize the chess-board-table..

who say that they are loosing out?

come and think of it, do our city kids know how to improvise?

I walked on.. saw some kids with see-saw...

probably 10 of them..

they saw me coming over...

and they all quickly move into a group...

i think they were juz feeling shy...

the playground had lots of rusty kids-play...

perhaps city kids will think it's dirty and old...

but they were enjoying them..

across the field...

saw some girls playing near a oil-drum...

as i walked nearer, i saw that they were playing sand...

not building sand castle coz no other 'tools'...

but they were talking, laughing, playing... the sand...

i 感慨 again coz they seems so contented...

who knows what they were thinking?

but they couldn't care what the world thinks...

they juz enjoy the moment...

far right, there were a group of boys...

they playing waters...

the water came from the overflowed nearby reservoir..

as i take a closer look...

they build 'dam' to stop water from flowing..

they used rocks, plastic bag filled with sand...

wow, they are like engineers...

though they are juz about 10yrs old.. but they know how to improvise...

i didn't see other kids (i probably met about 30+ of them) (altogether 70 kids)..

but by now i am already amazed...

i was reminded of a song, remembering you...

no matter how cold the weather, how tough life is, how much lack they face..

God never forgets them...

God found found them, God rescued them...

God gave them so much to live for...

great mind to think...

amazing hands to get friends and work...

blessed leg to walk and run...

wonderful heart to feel and be filled...

no wonder Bible says, godliness + contentment = great gain...

appreciate what i have, grateful for what i don't have...

because God remembers me...

Do i remember God?

Or.. have i had too much that I forgot about Him?

the aftermath

2010-10-31T22:43:00.004+08:00

To write about the whole trip will be taking a long long time...

So i will write my 'aftermath'...

Went to church right after we came back from airport...

it was nice to see that the car much had much progress..

then as i went ard, saw some familiar faces...

some welcome me back, so juz said 'Hi'..

i didn't mind if there were any welcome but then i myself ponder...

did i pay attention to what happened in others' life?

of course i won't know about everybody, but how about those in the same office as me?

how about those that i am rather close with?

i wonder will this community (church) become juz so 'cold'..

where everyone is juz busy with what they need to be busy with...

and only those who have 'benefits' then will we be more concern...

juz a thought...

Hmmm.. it should juz start with me..

let me be more concern with what's happening in others life..

while i share with them what happen to me,

what happen to them, i muz be concern as well...

as for the trip...

i think it's really good and important to have expectation for a trip..

or at least, what i hope to see, achieve...

or else, dunno what to look for, where the eyes suppose to look at...

having imagination, expectation, target is good..

because then we get more surprise...

Praise God that my expectations are met.. :) happy...

2nd, never say never...

God is really capable to doing anything...

when we avail ourselves, then we will experience the supernatural power...

the extraordinary encounter...

Alan said this during tea time today (paraphrase)...

"wah, u all seems to have lots of problem ah...

started with buying tickets already got lots of difficulties...

with so many obstacles along the way, somehow all turn out well"

Indeed, all things work together...

because..

God can...

happy..

it was a good trip...

it was a good experience..

it was good...

and i rest on the Sabbath day.. :)

Beyond our expectation

2010-10-29T23:30:00.002+08:00

Right now the team is shopping at the night bazaar @ Chiang Mai...

don't feel like going (will go later) because i feel like writing down what happened today...

we set today to be a city-tour day..

so Ps.Suchat (local Methodist pastor, Ps. Joseph's cousin) came to pick us @ 9am...

we went to the Elephant camp, Queen's palace...

during the trip i was talking to Jeff...

I was hoping to bring them to eat a special steamboat..

but then i realized, the one that i referred to is in Nong Khai..

so i was thinking to eat normal steamboat...

Right after Queen's palace, Ps. Suchat invited the team to his church...

there's a special meeting because one of the youth going to Chiang Rai...

We couldn't say no, so we went...

As i reached there, i was overjoyed...

because I saw a group of young people...

don't know why but i juz felt that it's exciting..

we had such a great time fellowshipping with them...

It was really beyond our expectation...

Just before we go we could meet up with this group of youth...

juz when we thought ministry chance over, but God brought in some more...

juz when i thought no chance to eat the special steamboat, they prepared..

yup...

that's right...

we had the special steamboat at their church premises!!

God is really amazing!!!

God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, beyond our imagination...

Imagine more.. dream more.. :)

Is He safe?

2010-10-28T15:03:00.004+08:00

was reading the TAWG and the title was... my title as well...

basically is taken from the story - Chronicles of Narnia..

when Lucy and Susan suppose to meet with Azlan...

they asked is He safe (coz Azlan is a lion)...

(i suppose everyone will be fearful when we have to face lion upfront)..

Beaver answered (ya, in the story, animal can speak)...

"Is He safe? No, but He's loving.."

Bible says God is consuming fire, He is not safe, but certainly loving...

We never think of meeting Him face to face...

because most of us never met Him face to face...

we dun think we will ever meet Him face to face..

But when i read the TAWG, suddenly I felt a conviction in me..

God is everywhere, He's watching us..

How can I live a life just as i wish,

Talk as I like, do as i please?

I am learning, learning to fear Him...

learning to place Him at the highest place...

while i draw near to Him without any pretension, reservation...

FEAR THE LORD AND WE NEED NOT FEAR ANYTHING ELSE...

trust in the Lord and we are blessed...

taste the goodness of the Lord and other things will be tasteless...

English class

2010-10-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

today and tomorrow suppose to teach the Karen brothers and sisters....

hmm.. not much time to write, juz prayer needed coz not that easy...

God help us..

TAWG this morning..

2010-10-26T08:06:00.003+08:00

Was reading devotion material for our mission team...

it is taken from ODB..

In his book Prayer: Finding the Heart’s True Home, Richard Foster tells of an old sage who asked his disciples, “How can we know when the darkness is leaving and the dawn is coming?”

“When we can see a tree in the distance and know that it is an elm and not a juniper,” one student responded.

“When we can see an animal and know it is a fox and not a wolf,” replied another.

“No,” said the teacher.

Puzzled, the students asked for the answer. The sage replied quietly, “We know the darkness is leaving and the dawn is coming when we can see another person and know that it is our brother or sister; otherwise no matter what time it is, it’s still dark.”

Do we take seriously John’s words, “We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love the brethren”? (1 Jn. 3:14). Or do we know of Christians whom we dislike intensely? Do we hold in contempt those who go to a different church and don’t agree with us on every issue? What about Christians of another race? Do we like them not only from a distance but also when they are up close and personal? If love is the mark of a believer, do people recognize that we belong to Christ?

Every kindness done to others

Is a kindness done to Thee;

Christlike love for all my brothers

May the world observe in me. —Brandt

..... (thinking)...

i may not agree with u, but u still my family in Christ..

i may not walk with u, but u will be with me in eternal home..

we may not have common interest but we have the same Father...

love one another.. no other clause, no fine print..

Last word of Jesus...

do i take it seriously...

wholeheartedly..

Thai lesson 101

2010-10-25T17:41:00.003+08:00

Today's lesson is simple...

almost everyone can say it..

without any mistake or problem..

So.. here it goes...

Pronunciation - SHU3 TIAO2

exact sound of 薯条

meaning: line up...

practical usage: when you ask children to line up..

2nd practical usage: as breakfast...

LOL...

yes, we eat 薯条 for our breakfast...

and when we ask children to line up, we say 薯条

LOVL...

Now you learn one Thai word... :)

薯条

Isaiah 61

2010-10-25T01:16:00.004+08:00

Read this passage many times...

but never felt so 'alive' before..

juz b4 the trip, was led to read this passage..

vv1-3 is really so encouraging for us who is in mission field...

"His Spirit has anointed us"...

Indeed God has anointed...

as I read vv4-11, i am so trilled...

1. to God, problem is so so small but He knows it bothers us...

so He still address it, but only with 1 verse...

2. In His eyes, we are PRIEST, MINISTER, HIS CHILDREN

3. God will restore, He's gonna prepare us...

4. all we need is to believe, rejoice and remain in Him...

believe in Him...

Rejoice in Him...

Remain in Him..

believe - all His words, all about Him.. all about u...

rejoice - regardless the situation, keep looking at Him and juz... rejoice

remain - walk with Him... have a close relationship..

After I shared with the church in Hod..

Ps Joseph told me...

You need to go to all the 9 different Karen camp...

coz they need to hear this message...

Is this for u too?

Do u see how God sees u?

I am learning...

I need a new pair of eyes...

Cut off from outside world...

2010-10-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

Round about 3am, woke up bcoz aircon suddenly went off...

(lol, cammy was saying that how good and blessed bcoz room got aircon)

didn't bother coz too tired..

by the time for us to wake, abt 6.30am, still no electricity...

Didn't think much, went straight to the toilet...

then realized, no water too...

(if u ask why, well, the answer is - the motel need electricity to 'pump' water into each room)

err, brush teeth no problem but... the rest... erhmmm, all got problem...

but no time to think, just do it 1st la..

went to church, prepared message (suppose to preach in the service)..

then had breakie (J'shua cook omelette's)..

as i took out my phone, realized no bat..

took out another phone, errr.. no network coverage...

for a while i was stunt.. we are cut off from outside world...

then.. i suddenly felt, thankful...

thankful to God because then i can focus, concentrate in the ministry...

i dun have to worry who call, no call, sms and what not's...

not used to it but not too bad...

can juz totally focus on doing the ministry, preach, play guitar, etc...

A very packed day but it was a bliss...

no need to think of connecting with anyone else somehow helped us to focus...

God really knows our need..

Cammy was glad that she experienced what mission is...

J'shua love the 'shining' moon...

Jeff juz smile at the moon...

I am....

amazed by Him...

Like that already almost whole day...

2010-10-23T23:29:00.004+08:00

A direct translation from what Jeff said, "酱就差不多一天了(liaoz)"...

he said this when we were on our way to Hod (or Hot), ard 5.45pm (local time)...

The day started as early as 4am...

juz when i was about to go and open the house door...

and I got a shock in my life, coz the whole bunch was gone!!!

after a long search (abt 30mins), finally...

knock on my mum's door and get key from her..

Reached church so late (5am)... quickly load everything...

by the time we reach Spore custom, 5.40am...

cleared the custom and rushed all the way (dun ask how fast i drove)...

our flight was supposed to be 7.15am...

we were there, 6.15am...

I told Jeff, 'bro, u gotta fly..." (he'll be our 'pioneer' to go and check-in)

thank God we were not the last one...

after checked in, had a quick breakie @ BK (ha, as usual)...

the plane didn't take off until about 7.40am...

so by the time we reach Bangkok (BKK) airport was almost 9...

our connecting flight to Chiang Mai is 11am...

at Don Muang airport...

according to the internet, it's about 45mins from where we were...

should be enough time...

as we stepped into the immigration area, i got 2nd shock in my life..

it was full of people.. people mountain, people sea...

we switched 3 - 4 lanes juz try to get a shorter lane...

I was the 1st one who cleared, it was 9.25am...

and to my 3rd shock, one baggage missing...

ran around, found it @ oversize baggage area...

by the time they all cleared, was about 9.40am..

Hired 2 taxi at 9.45am...

So we told the driver to rush...

asked him how long, he said 50mins...

and, we were supposed to be at the airport by 10.15am

we reached Don Muang airport @ 10.25am...

i told Jeff, "err, u gotta fly.. again"..

Jeff ran again... to be the pioneer...

Thank God, we were the last to check-in....

but still can make it...

We board the plane, it took off...

Just when i was feeling hungry...

the air-stewardess came by and gave all of us Auntie Annie's hotdog bun...

WAH! my #??? shock...

though it is a budget airline but they serve food!!!

praise God!

Arrived Chiang Mai, came out of airport, met with Ps.Joseph...

we had lunch at Carrefour and went to Makro did some shopping...

Drinking water, toilet papers (Ps said orphanage no toilet paper), oil, tidbits, papers, etc... were all in our cart...

went to market to get meat and vege (Ps suggested to cook our own, cheaper)...

so, by the time we really leave for Hod...

was almost 4.45pm...

we reached Hod about 6.20pm...

and Ps brought us to PP Resort to check-in...

to my total surprise, it is really comfy and nice...

with hot shower, aircon and... internet access...

but the internet access is like '过境阵雨' (occasional rain) lol...

so sometimes have, sometimes dun have...

but good enough.. at least i can blog...

had simple dinner and we quickly had team meeting...

practiced songs, finalized programs for the following day...

and the time is 11pm (local time)...

Wah.. like that already whole day...

seems like we didn't do much, but time juz passed...

had a good time of laughter and fellowship..

was a good day..

May the Lord bless our following day...

THANK YOU LORD...

Timing

2010-10-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

The Karen mission team had so limited time to get ready...

Only had 1 week to discuss and another week for practice...

So, we all agreed that we will join the 247 prayer on Thurs (today)...

I was there about 7.05pm (ya, was a bit late)...

and we quickly got in and find our 'seat'...

This is a new time slot...

And since the changing of time slot and pattern...

Albert has been writing Bible verse on the white board...

He started off with Isaiah 58, few weeks ago...

Now, this is what I really believe that God's timing is never early, never late..

He knows when and He knows how...

the moment I saw the white board, i was really excited...

It was written, 'Isaiah 61... the Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me...

'because He has anointed me to preach the good news to the poor...'

The rest of the passage is really like a prophecy for the Karen tribe...

And I just felt within, God is saying 'tell them, tell them...'

Yes, I will tell them, Your Majesty...

Well...

Do I know before hand? NO...

Did I tell Albert that the team is going to meet on this particular day? NO

God knows...

He arranged...

more often than not, we think many things come 'automatically'..

I think God really arranges lots of things for us...

As I think deeper...

I am reminded once again...

You and I are never an accident...

He planned, He designed, He make sure it is there... that we are there...

Life is really adventurous, full of exciting events...

He is so creative, all we need is to allow Him to lead...

Like Mary said, 'be it unto me, according to Your words'

Humble but powerful confession...

Be it unto me... according to Your words...

Your... TIMING...

Hope in the Lord

2010-10-20T18:10:00.005+08:00

When I put the title of the post...

I only think about how 'wait upon the Lord' also called 'hope in the Lord'

then i remember the passage the read this morning - Ps 25..

"To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul.. in you I trust, O my God.

Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me.

No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame..."

Hope in Him.... Wait for Him...

Those who hope in the Lord will not be put to shame...

those who wait for Him, He'll not disappoint them...

Seems to me that to really gain 'hope' we certainly need to wait...

But like Chong Hiang preached about us being impatient...

Humans are just so impatient..

all the answers that we are waiting seems due yesterday..

Why doesn't God answer? Does He know? Does He bother?

I have many encounters of 'unanswered' prayer..

unfulfilled dream, unaccomplished desire..

come to this point then I laugh at myself..

Am I going to keep talking about the past?

LOL

nope, those encounters were in the past, it's over...

why still remember so much?

God's promises is not yesterday, is tomorrow..

Hmm.. the best is yet to come...

That's our hope..

if it doesn't happen today, it's ok... God's not dead... :)

~~ My GOD is so BIG, so STRONG, and so MIGHTY ~~

~~ There's nothing my GOD cannot do... ~~

God is already there - tomorrow...

Like a lover waiting for his love ones to arrive at destination...

:) hmmm..

Let me get myself ready for tomorrow...

Wait.. 'today is still around'...

oh, don't waste it...

then i can meet Him tomorrow :)

HOPE...

wonderful journey

2010-10-19T16:37:00.003+08:00

my school mate recently accepted Christ...

and i heard that he has been attending Bible classes and training..

he is like a sponge, wanting to know more and absorb more..

and i know, he will grow...

though i am not directly involve in his growth but it's a joy...

a joy to see someone grow in Christ..

looking at some of those lives that I invested in...

many of them grew...

not sure how much i was involved...

but that doesn't matter..

i am glad.. glad to see them grow..

grow in faith, grow in this family...

grow in their walk with God...

it's really joyful...

Though i am not very old, but it's already so satisfying..

now i know, why those old minister can go on...

not because they focus on how those whom they helped appreciated them..

but focus on 'what a privilege to journey with someone'...

After Jesus resurrected, He was walking with two disciples..

it was a short journey, but a journey that opened their eyes...

then He was no more..

It was an example, a journey that touched lives...

though it might not have immediate effect...

maybe it might not be remembered...

but it was life-transforming, it was eye-opening..

that itself, is enough...

A wonderful journey..

Rain falls

2010-10-19T13:51:00.004+08:00

" just when we think we know it all...

we dunno nothing yet.. hallelujah.."

was in the 'lyrics' of Kent Henry's spontaneous song...

"Rain falls"...

It's been a while since i heard such anointed prophetic, spontaneous song...

such was the anointed, heartwarming, life-transforming song...

We need His rain.. His rain fall...

After recent Sun's worship...

I really felt that as Christian, we cannot let worship be a ritual...

or else it will be tasteless and meaningless...

For us to go on - as God's child, believing in Him, walking with Him...

we need to really worship Him in spirit and in truth..

we need to worship Him in love..

"Blessed is the man.. who seeks godly counsel,

walk with God and delight in His will..

There, he will continue to grow...

Psalms 1:1-4 (paraphrase)

He's a true God, let our worship be true..

He's a loving God, let our worship be filled with love...

He's a holy God, let our worship comes from a holy life...

He's the only God, let Him be the only one we worship...

Lord....send Your rain... thanks...

Tired but fruitful...

2010-10-17T22:45:00.004+08:00

alarm started ringing @ 6.45am...

ya, that's how early Sun morning starts.. for me...

but... ha, didn't wake up till 7am..

iron clothes, shower, dressed up...

by the time reach church, almost 8am...

joined TnT Sun morning prayer, till about 8.35am

went over to Canaan hall for Sun practice - me leading worship..

practice went quite well..

10am... worship session starts (theologically, not right, but..)

Nothing is impossible... it went so well, i could see many enjoyed the song...

Came to Hosanna.. Phuuah, i really enjoyed my musicians...

in fact today musicians played fantastically well...

as we sang Renew them in our day, I felt God was just there...

by the time we sang Yahweh, fuiiyohh...

it was just really really overwhelming...

God's presence was really thick..

Ps.Wendy Ching said, "God's presence was great yet tender.."

AMEN! God was just moving so freely among us...

Chong Hiang did HC, just by reading the lyrics of Wondrous cross..

I cried, and cried... His love was so so real and heart touching...

1-3.20pm, taught Emotional Excellence.. pretty good session..

then we went for afternoon tea...

small table, squeezed 8 of us...

small but really cozy.. i so enjoyed...

4.15-6.40pm.. we had TnT committee meeting..

most of us were tired but the seesion went well too..

7.10pm, Angela and I had dinner with Yan...

Flying noodles... ha... fly me to the moon...

anyway.. good fellowship...

now.. almost the end of day, though tired but my heart is full..

So full of the love of God and love from people...

so full of the touch from God and people...

erhmmm... I'm so full.. :)

What a blessed day!

A week starts on Sun or Mon?

2010-10-17T00:09:00.004+08:00

Juz about to go to sleep...

suddenly this thought came into my mind...

does a week start on Sun or Mon?

not that it is a million dollar question...

but I was just thinking...

it'll be very different if we see it differently...

People talk about Monday blues..

Because it's 1st day of work..

A new week has just began...

But I was thinking...

Sunday - supposedly a day Christ resurrected...

which means it marked a new beginning..

so, actually our week starts on Sun..
(some will argue - NO.... lol)

anyway, what's so different?

Hmm.. if we view Sun to be the beginning...

isn't it great? a week started with so much blessing..

God's presence, God's word, a good communion time (Eucharist)..

Plus good fellowship, good makan time, so much joy and fun...

also lots of meetings - where decisions are made and finalized...

then only come to Mon..

which is already the second day so, even if it's tough, face challenges...

so what? God has already given us so much on Sun...

If our week starts on Mon... then...

huh.. it's what we are facing, isn't it?

well, maybe this is the way to cure Monday blues...

chill out... it's not really the beginning, already 'mid-week'

Happy Sunday!