feeling...

whether animal or human, all have feelings...
fear, happy, excited, sad, troubled, nervous, lonely...
knowing how to stir each of the feeling it means manipulation...
knowing how to manage each of the factor that cause the feelings...
i suppose it's call self control..
35 years... i think i am still learning how to manage my own...
sometimes helping others to manage theirs..
but from time to time i found myself being stirred to feel...
and from time to time i found myself stirring others...
am i manipulative? am i being manipulated?
may the Lord help me..
so that i seek to help, not manipulate...
that i will be true not just a show...
i wanna be real
~ Lord prepare me, to be a sanctuary ~
~ this is real life... ~