there was this guy who always ask all kinds of questions...
e.g. 'why God allow Adam to fall since He knew it?'
'why didn't God give satan chance to repent?'
'if God says that He regret, means He actually didn't know what will happen?'
headache... lib.. :(
i kena asked until dunno how to answer...
even when i thought i gave a very good answer, he was not convinced...
then he went to KL to study...
after that he went to US to further study...
i was kinda worried bcoz US has even more cult group...
i worried that he will become a atheist bcoz of he has so much questions and doubt...
every now and then we talk over the phone, email each other...
juz to make sure he don't go wayward...
the other day i was thinking abt him...
then today i received an email from him, juz a casual greetings...
so i replied with some testimonies (juz to encourage him)...
below is his reply to me...
Yeah, I guess my faith has become more orthodox and less hip throughout the years. I am also more interested in understanding the gospel, its implication and application. Believe it or not, I actually have learned to appreciate ancient hymns and enjoy classical/ Jazz worship music more. My faith has become more reflective, personal and substantial. (I hope). Nevertheless, I do recognize the fact that I am by no means perfect. The gospel, like a mirror, only makes me see my imperfection clearer. I have realized than I more sinful than I want to think, paradoxically, I also have realize that God loves me more than I "actually" deserve.( in actuality, I deserve death) "He died the death I should have died, and lived a life I should have lived", as Tim Keller, one of the very few pastors that I have deep admiration for, beautifully put.
You probably remember, I used to be the 'doubting Thomas' in the small group, questioning left and right non stop. Years later, I am still dealing with my doubts, but with a better grasp of the gospel, as it seems. The desire for me to know the truth has never been more evident. Living in a pluralistic world, where the Christian world view is often clashed with secularism and other "isms", has presented me with multiple challenges to continue to uphold my own belief. I was forced me to think, to question, to test my own belief more than ever. I who was once a skeptic had doubted my own doubts. A seeker, that was my name. A seeker who has mixed feelings about the Christianity. I don't know when I start to change my name. Today, I am a believer of the Gospel, but still with questions in minds. Doubts are good. They are like antibodies in your body. Can't live without it.
i was totally speechless...
i am amazed how God can speak to a person...
how God can help and change a person...
as long as we are willing, God will...
anyway, now he's doing quite well...
working in UN...
hope one day can visit him at his head quarter office...
lol...
by the way, his name is Jacky Tong...
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