again & again...

chinese has an idiom "一而再再而三"...
it means, same thing happen over and over again...

i'm not having the liberty to reveal now,
but knowing that someone close to me leaving it's just so sad...
though not far but the reality of not being able to co-work again...
sadden me...

is it because of no coworker or not much of chance to interact?
dunno...
bcoz in actual, when they are here, we seldom spent time...
now knowing that they are leaving, i felt i have failed again..
of coz i dun think they leave due to my lack..
but i felt that i failed bcoz if i consider them as close friend...
why didn't i spent more time?
why didn't i pay more attention to their struggle?
why didn't i?

while writing this, i'm listening to this song...

really feel like crying...
though it's not exactly about this situation...
but somehow it gives a little bit of the feeling...
i really need to grab hold of the opportunity...
treat those people who are close to me really close...

To all my close friends...
sorry for not being there when you have need
sorry for not listening when you feel like talking
sorry for being selfish
sorry for not being a good friend to you...
i just want to tell all my friends..
I love you!
I really treasure and appreciate the friendship...
but I'm really bad with expressing and following up...
I wish all the best... I pray that God will bless you richly...
take care my friends